Hey guys, I’m still here :)

Hey everyone. How is my OD family doing? It’s been a minute since I’ve written anything. I’ve been alright. Babies are wonderful. Riley fights to sit up every day. Owen fights to role over every day. They laugh so much. They rarely cry. Which is a blessing. They are sleeping great. They’ll go down anywhere between 8 and 9. Owen will sleep until 4am, eat, and then go back to sleep till 8. Riley will sleep right through until 8. It’s wonderful. This weekend my mom and I are taking them, Jessie, and Courtney to the pumpkin patch to get pumpkins. Next weekend Pat and I are going to get there costumes. Right now I think Owen is going to be a spider and Riley is going to be a lady bug…I think.

I’ve been alright. My depression is a never ending up a down roller coaster. When I’m on my meds. I’m alright. When I am off them I’m a complete bitch to everyone…except the kids. My latest blow is finding out my actual breast size. I’ve always had large breasts and I’ve always talked about getting a breast reduction. Well I went to Lane Bryant on Saturday in look for a bra because I haven’t been able to find one. Well, they measured me and I found out why I couldn’t find one any where. Come to find out, I measure as a 44 F. I just barely [and comfortably] fit into a 44 DDD. It made me cry.

Speaking of Lane Bryant, the same day that I was there I got an application. I filled it out and on Monday I went back up to the mall where it is at and handed it in. Right then and there I had an interview that day, at 1:30. I basically got the job. All that I am waiting for is for them to call my references. I should here from Beckie next week. They’ll be starting me out at $7.50-8.00 an hour, 15-20 hours a week until late November when busy time hits. Decent employee discounts. 40% off the merchandise and once a month the employees get 55% off the merchandise. I’m so excited. Just one step closer to getting the hell out of Pat’s mom’s apartment.

Speaking of her. She’s DRIVING ME INSANE. Gotta have the heat up to 75-85 degrees. I’m ready to tear it out of the wall. I keep shutting the shit off. She’s a crazy smoker. No respect for me or the kids. She doesn’t even acknowledge that her grand kids live with her. She looks past them which makes me feel terrible because for some reason my kids aren’t as good as Jen of Liz’s. It is taking everything in me to not kill this woman.

Hmm…Pat and I are fine. He’s been working a lot of overtime. He’s doing his best as well to get us out of this hell hole. We went out Saturday. We went to dinner. We went to Uno’s Bar and Grille and it was nice to have a sit down dinner with him. Then we walked the mall. That’s when I went to Lane Bryant. We upgraded our cell phones. We both got the Sprint Fusic. LOVE this phone. It’s a phone and iPod in one. All I need now is a new laptop and I’ll be set. *TMI* We finally had sex the other night. The first time in a month. I just don’t feel sexy enough to have sex. I see something complete different than what he sees. He’s sees me as a beautiful woman, and I see me as a fat pig. But, like I said we had sex, and it was nice. *End TMI*

Well it’s 11:53pm and he’ll be getting out of work in 7 minutes and they’ll be home around 12:10. So until next time…toodles.

♥ Amanda

P.s. I’ll take pictures of this weekend….PROMISE!!

.The Angel.