HELLO EVERYONE!! [Pictures] *really long entry*
Well it’s been a minute since I have written, and I thought seeing I have new news that I’d write today. [Plus some new pictures.] But before I get to the news about the babies, I have to back track a little. Let’s see, what the talk about in this entry:
First off:
School
School started on the 29th and it went pretty good. I missed my first day of Psychology. The parking lots where jammed packed so I had to pack 10 minutes away and walk to the campus…in the wind and snow. It was rather [pleasant] shitty!! Math is going to be a cake walk. I can’t really elaborate on that. Philosophy is going to be a toughy. Not in the fact that it’s a tough course, not at all, it has to do with the fact that my professor has a quite, soft spoken tone to him that is so relaxing I have to force myself to stay awake. Lastly, Nutrition is alright. The only bad thing is that for 3 hours we are talking about food…not good for a pregnant girl who’s hungry all the time!! Other than that, school has been alright. I didn’t make it today due to weather, which I’ll have to say is crazy.
The weather [secondly] here is out of control. For the first half of winter we were in the 50’s and 60’s with no snow, and now, we have snow and at 5 degrees, not including the wind chill. With the wind chill it’s between -11 to -14 degrees BELOW zero. 30 mile an hour winds at time. Snow drifts. Enough for me to say that I’ve had it with winter!! I’m not a snow person at all. So seeing that it was so cold today, my car didn’t want to start and I didn’t want to have to walk the 10 minutes to class because the weather people put out an advisory to stay indoors and if any bare skin was exposed to the cold more that 20 minutes frost bite would occur. Screw that happy mess!!
Thirdly…
My relationship
My relationship has taken a turn up shit creek. Seeing that I have crazy hormones to deal with and the fact that his mother pisses me every second she gets, I snapped. I told Pat things had to change and that he has a month to show me a little bit of an improvement. There’s also more to go along with this. Seeing that I am up everyday between 7 and 8 running all day until at least 2 in the morning, I didn’t find it fair that he could come home from work, stay up and play in World of Warcraft game until 4-5 in the morning, sleep until 3 when I came and got him up to go to work and then go to work for 8 hours pulling stirafoam plates and bowls off a line and bagging them. He would be sleeping anywheres between 11-12 hours, working for 8 and playing his bullshit for 4-5 hours. Where in there did you see me say ‘and spending time with me, his pregnant fiance’? No wheres…that’s it you win the prize!! So I lost it on that aspect. The fact that I graduated highschool, manage to be a full time college student, pregnant with twins, up for 19-20 hours, going to my mom’s and watch my 2 little sisters, and taking them to work and he’s home doing nothing with no highschool diploma or GED and work at entry level and telling me he had a rough day!! Then the fact that his mother is still there making me a stressed out basket case has gotten to me. I have had all I can take. And last part of it all, remember a couple entries back I wrote about him hitting on this new girl at work, the blonde? And I confronted him about it? Well it has happened again. A different girl of course. This time it’s is mothers ex-trainee. The one that I played taxi to the first night she started working at Pactiv. [I say I played taxi because his mother walked up to my car, opened the door and this girl was with her and asked if I could give this girl a ride home. I could’nt say no because she was staying right there.] Anyways, apparently she just starting ‘showing up’ in his department one night. Mind you he works in OPS [he works with plastic. Cake domes, deli-lids, berry baskets, stuff like that[ and she works in Consumer [not quite sure what they do…I think they are the ones that make the school lunch trays] and this department is on the other side of the building. OPS is in building 2 and Consumer is in building 4, I think. Well anyways, she showed up wanting a cigarette from him so he made it a point to have the same break with her and go out on the same side. She would also in turn, leave her department just to walk in front of him or find him. He told me about it and when he told me he added in “I didn’t want to tell you but…” Yeah I was so fucking thrilled. I lost it. I felt like I wasn’t doing my share in the relationship, or wasn’t ‘fulfilling’ his needs so he was looking somewhere’s else for it. I stayed at my mom’s for 2 nights and didn’t go home. I just had to stay here and chill. Anyways, when I went home, on Saturday the 27th he said that we would go to dinner. Seeing we had the extra money and we got our cable, phone, and internet turned back on. Ok, so I took a shower and headed home. He did his taxes really quick and then he goes to me “why don’t you go downstairs and talk to mom and see where you GUYS want to have dinner.” Where in the statement we’ll go to dinner is there you, me and mom will go to dinner? So that pissed me off. Then we had to keep our face in front of the computer. So I told him, things need to change and you have a month to show me that you can start making it happen. So last week Thursday he want and did something having to do with GED. He took his placement test. He has to take some classes and I guess in March he can take the GED test. Who knows. But it’s a start.
His MOTHER!!
She has gotten to me completely. The newest things is that we have done is stopped smoking in the house and in the car. We have an inclosed porch out front so there is no reason why smoking can’t be done out there. I have to go through and each wash the walls and ceilings or just pant them. Anyways, she feels that it’s stupid that smoking has to be done outside. And she feels that it’s stupid she can’t smoke in here room. Sorry, my kids my rules. Today, however, when I was taking them to work she lights up on the porch and brings it in my car. I didn’t notice it until I was on the rode. Now when she smokes in my car she won’t roll down the window. I was pissed. She can’t respect the fact that I want smoking done outside of my car and my house. Also, last night seeing that it got REALLY cold I wanted to turn the water on a little bit so the pipes wouldn’t freeze. She turned the kitchen sink on, and I went into the bathroom and turned the bathtub and the bathroom sink on. She followed right behind me and turned them off and TOLD me that I didn’t have to have them on and I didn’t know what I was doing. She went upstairs so what did I do, turned them back on. Also, it’s has gotten to the point that Pat and I can’t have sex in our house. *TMI MOMENT* This Saturday when I got home Pat and I got in the shower together. Things started happening and we got out of the shower and had sex on the bathroom floor. She had to tell me all about it again and told me that we have to have sex where she can’t hear it. I was like what the fuck. Now I am waiting for her to tell me all about last night. Again, Pat and I had sex. I’m not a quite person, so we’ll see. *END TMI MOMENT* I just can’t stand this lady….
Now the part that everyone wants to know…how the babies are. Well something exciting happened this weekend. I went down to my dad’s to stay for the night just to get away. Anyways, I was sitting at the kitchen table and I felt these flutters in the middle of my tummy and a little bit to the left. I kept feeling them all night long. I mentioned it to my mom today, seeing it happened last night too, she said that I more than likely felt a baby/babies move. It’s about that time…so I believe I felt either 1 or both of them move. Huge Proud Mommy Moment!! Any, today I’m 15 weeks…so I took a 15 week belly shot. Didn’t get around to it last week, sorry. Other than that, things are pretty good. Morning sickness feeling is gone…YAY!! Doctors on the 16th and my WIC appointment is tomorrow.
So now, without anyone further stuff, I present pictures. A couple random and belly.
Saturday the 27th…mom and Jessie dancing. Jessie was trying to teach my mom have to do the Cotton Eyed Joe dance.
More dancing.
Even more dancing.
Baby Emilie. Taken 1/30. I was taking clothes off her cause she was sweatin like crazy.
Another Baby Emilie.
BELLY SHOTS!!
From the left. PROUD MOMMY!!
From the right. For some reason, every picture I take from the right looks smaller than the one on the left. Probably how I am positioned.
What my maternity clothes are lookin like.
Well everyone, that’s all I have for you today. Until next time…toodles!!
♥ Amanda
Ahhh, the joys of living with the in-laws 😉 I know the pain well 😛 It’s good to see you writing another entry, I noticed your name had dropped down quite low on my Faves list – now it’s back at the top again!
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I’m sorry about his mom and him being like that. He needs to realize what he has with you and what his mom is pullin. She sounds like a royal bitch. Sorry bout the language, but geez. Anyways, you look soooo happy in your pictures! =) Yay, for feeling your babies move! Pretty soon you’ll be getting those fun kicks in the ribs haha. Hope things get better! =)
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