Clear up repeat questions + a short entry + survey

Ok so a lot of you have asked if Pat and I could move out or stay somewhere else. I can. I can always go back to my mom’s but I don’t want to go through the day to day experiences of being pregnant without him. It’s not just my first pregnancy it’s his as well. As for him stay at my mom’s would be a cold day in hell when that happened. My mom and him still don’t see eye to eye. They are civil when need be, but other than that they avoid each other like the plague. We can’t go anywhere because Pat owns the house that we live in. So seeing that Pat owns our house, we can’t really abandon it.

Another question that has been asked is is it possible for him and I to make it financially. The answer is yes if him and his mother could get all the bills right. After paying all the back mortgage, cable, gas, and electric they owe then yes it is possible. She just can’t make by herself financially because she is a compulsive spender. He moved his mother in with him 5 years ago when he moved up here to help each other out. She was living in a beat up trailer and he moved up here because he didn’t want to be in Olean anymore. She just hasn’t left since then.

Another thing to do with money is because of his mother, Pat can’t have his own bank account. They were with WCTA [which is a credit union in our area] and his mother was trying to sell a sewing machine. Someone over in Europe said they’d buy it and said that they were going to send her a $3,000 check, have her cash it, take the $500 for the sewing machine and send the remaining $2,500 back. Well to make a long story short, she cashed this check which turned out to be a fraudulent check. The bank went after her for the $3,000 and seeing that Pat was on the account as well he get the same thing. So from that day forward, seeing that the Attorney General said that they are responsible for the $3,000 Pat can’t get a checking account. However, somehow his mother got one with Bank of America. His mortgage is through Chase Manhattan Bank and they won’t give him an account. So for him to have his money he deposits it into his mothers account. Even though his name is on the account as well, she gets the ATM/Debit card so he can’t do anything but write checks. And she’ll hide the card if she feels like it. That’s how they go through so much money. She has run of the card. And seeing it’s a Visa card as well, she uses credit as often as she can. She did something like this again…this was over the fall…where she gave out the bank card number to a “Government Grant” thing and hundreds of dollars started coming up missing because she’s an idiot.

The reason why she lives with us is because she has Pat so fucking brain washed it’s not funny. The woman is 50 years old and still uses the excuse that she needs Pat and that she can’t make it on her own. Every 2 weeks the woman brings home a little over $800. But it would be hell for her to get an apartment because of her credit rating, and the fact that she has some outstanding bills. So she stays with us where it’s basically a free ride. I’ve had it up to the top of my head with her and her bullshit. I am Pat’s fiancé, his wife in practice if not yet by law, so it’s my house before it’s hers.

She’s also trying to make up for being a ‘bad’ mother in all 3 of her children’s lives. Stuff has happened in Pat’s life that she could have prevented but didn’t. Instead of using the child support to get the Pat and his 2 sisters stuff, she would use the money for themselves. I know me saying she was a bad mother sounds bad, but from what all Pats father has told me, I have to sort of believe it. And when his dad talks about Pats past, and I see the look of pain and heartache on his face there is no doubt that the stuff that I was told is real.

She’s also selfish. Before Pat and I got engaged she was his sole beneficiary of his life insurance and 401K. When it came time for him to renew the insurance and do whatever to it, he named me the sole beneficiary of both his life insurance and his 401K. So if he dies I get the house [all paid for] and $150,000, and if he dies and it’s on accident I get the house and $250,000. He did raise it when it was renewal time. His 401K is about $5,000 and I get that as well. So knowing that, she’s pissed because she doesn’t see any of that money. The kids and I get it all.

She’s also not too happy with the fact that there is going to be no more smoking in the house or in MY car. Also, I want her candle shit out of my house as well. I don’t want my kids breathing that mess. Forget it. She also has until June to have her dog trained. The dog has a tendency to nip at peoples feet while they are going down the stairs, lay on the stairs and not move so I have to hurtle over her, and she jumps on people. She jumps on me and I want to rip her head off. She jumped on me on Friday and it slapped her for doing it. She hits my stomach which in turns pushes on it and makes it hurt. I’m not an animal abuser, it’s just that I don’t want this dog to harm me or my children. I am also afraid that the dog is going to end up tripping me while I’m pregnant or after the kids come when I am carrying one or both in my arms. She has to be right under peoples feet, so I told Pat she has 5 months to train that dog or its gone. Same thing with his cat. The cat is going to learn to stay out of the bedroom and off my bed or it’s gone as well.

Well I think that’s everything that I had to clear up. Onto today’s entry.

I’m still upset about yesterday’s little episode. I didn’t even go downstairs today. I stayed upstairs. His mother looked at me and I wanted to gouge her eyes out. She wasn’t too thrilled with fact that I didn’t feel like leaving until 3:30. I went downstairs at 3:25 to go to the bathroom and brush my hair and she thought I was coming down to take her to work. Nope, we leave on my time now bitches! She ended up jumping up, turned the TV, surround sound off, put her coat on and when she realized that I wasn’t ready she sat down and started watching TV. I’m still sore with Pat as well about the whole doctors appointment. Today he kept sending me messages about how he wished is was Monday and how he can’t wait to go. He called me on his break and he said it again and I reminded him that we could have gone yesterday but he had to be an ass and he was like I know. What I don’t understand is that both him and his mother knew how important this appointment was to me. It was an ultrasound appointment for god sakes. But they used all the money but could buy cigarettes. Anyways, I didn’t talk much to Pat either. Tonight it’s suppose to snow and we are suppose to be getting 3-5 inches and when I dropped him off at work he was like “I’ll see you when you get home.” I came back with a “we’ll see.” He asked if I wanted him to ride home with my mom. I told him no. I don’t know what the big deal is with him if I stay at my mom’s. So if it’s shitty I’m staying right here.

I had baby Emilie again today. Things went fine. She’s such a cutie.

Well other than that, nothing else is new since yesterday. So with that said, I am going to end it here. Until next time…toodles.

♥ Amanda

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Pregnacy Survey

About You
Name?: Amanda
Age?: 20
Height?: 5’9
Pre-pregnancy weight?: I’ll keep that to myself…something’s I like to keep private.

About The Father
Name?: Patrick
Age?: 24
Height?: 6’1”
Are you still together?: Yes

About Your Pregnancy
Is this your first pregnancy?: Second, but 1st ‘correct’ one.
When did you find out you were pregnant?: November 21.
Was it planned?: Yes
What was your first reaction?: Excited
Who was with you when you found out?: Nobody
Who was the first person you told?: Patrick
How did your parents react?: His mom well we won’t go there, his dad’s thrilled, my dad and step mom are thrilled and at first my mom didn’t take it well but it’s growing on her.
How far along are you?: 12 weeks and a day.
What was your first symptom?: My breasts hurt.
What is your due date?: July 30, 2007
Do you know the sex of the baby?: Not yet
If so, what is it?:
Have you picked out names?: Well sort of…we were all shocked to hell to find out that we were having twins so…
If so, what are they?: Well if we have a boy/girl combo we are naming them Jaydis Marie and Owen Michael, if it’s a boy/boy or a girl/girl combo we don’t know.
How much weight have you gained?: A lot
Do you have stretch marks?: Yes
Have you felt the baby move?: Not yet
Have you heard the heartbeat?: Not yet…only seen it.

About the birth
Will you keep the baby?: Yes
Home or hospital birth?: Hospital
Natural or medicated birth?: Natural if all possible.
Who will be in the delivery room with you?: My mom and Patrick.
Will you breastfeed?: No
Do you think you’ll need a c-section?: I might. Depends on what position they are in.
Will you cry when you hold the baby for the first time?: Probably.
What’s the first thing you might say to him/her?: I don’t know.
Would you let someone videotape the birth?: No
Are you excited about the birth, or scared?: Both

.The Angel.