As the roses fade and die so doesnt everthing else

When winter comes in summer
When there’s no more forever
Yeah, that’s when I’ll stop loving you

That’s when I’ll stop loving you
I’m sure you’ve heard these words before
And I know it’s hard for you to trust them once more
You’re afraid it all might end
And a broken heart is scared of breaking again
But you’ve gotta believe me
I’ll never leave you
You’ll never cry long as I am there
And I will always be there
You will never be without love
When winter comes in summer
When there’s no more forever
When lies become the truth
Oh you know then baby,
That’s when I’ll stop lovin’
That’s when I’ll stop loving you

As long as sunlight lights the sky
Light of love will be found in these eyes of mine
And I will shine that light for you
You’re the only one, I’ll ever give this heart to
What I’m trying to say is, nothing will change this
There’ll be no time you won’t find me there
Cause I will always be there
You will always have all my love
When winter comes in summer
When there’s no more forever
When lies become the truth
Well you know then baby,
That’s when I’ll stop lovin’
That’s when I’ll stop loving you

And when this world doesn’t turn anymore
When the stars all decide to stop shining
Til then I’m gonna to be by your side
Gonna be loving you forever
Every day of my life
Ohh..baby..
Well you know then baby
That’s when I’ll stop lovin’
That’s when I’ll stop lovin’

That’s when I’ll stop loving you
When winter comes in summer
When there’s no more forever
When lies become the truth
Well you know then baby,
That’s when I’ll stop lovin’
That’s when I’ll stop loving you
When winter comes in summer
When there’s no more forever
When lies become the truth
That’s when I’ll stop loving
That’s when I’ll stop loving you

That’s when I’ll stop babe
I’ll stop babe
Loving you

The End…for now

Well if you didn‘t read my front page then you have no idea with what is going on. I broke it off with John last night. He just began to scare me so much that I didn‘t what to do with myself. The night that Kenny looked at my car and he started with the 20 questions was when I noticed a change. I let it go for awhile, but then I came to notice that if I didn‘t go and see him every night I would get a guilt trip from him. Also he came and found me at work. I didn’t leave work right away, I was hanging out with Joe and Sean, and he kept calling and text messaging me and then ended up driving past the store so I moved my car and he came to the store and we ’argued’ a little outside. Then yesterday he called me 22 times, left me 6 voicemails, and 13 text messages. I did tell him everything that I just said that he was scaring me and I can’t and don’t want that. Plus with me not being completely over Pete. It’s not fair to him or I. I still feel awful though. Did I do the right thing? Am I doing the right thing?

Anyways, I went to work last night for a quick moment. Joe and Sean were there. The thing between Sean and I is growing…I think. I can see it in his eyes. When we are alone with one another it’s there. I don‘t know what is going to happen. It‘s bad timing too. It‘s not because of Sean I left John. It was more than that. I had to say that because if and when he reads this I don‘t want him to think that Sean has something that he doesn‘t. I didn‘t leave him for that reason.

Well I just wanted to write about that. Let me skip to an entirely different person. I got a letter today from Matt. The one in jail. It‘s hard to see how much he loves me. He‘s already purposed to me in one of his letters. I think it was the last one I got. I didn‘t respond to that for one reason. I don‘t know what to say. I mean I do want to get married and I know I talk about it a lot, but again my age. I am trying to grow up WAY too fast than what I am already doing.

I can‘t even write this entry. I am talking to John and I just can‘t do this. I wish he never met me!! PLCG!!

-A*