All that glits and glitters comes to an end…….

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Right Now

.tic toc.10:22pm
.sportin.White BONGO cords, PRDC shirt, and NIKE hoodie
.hair.Down, brushed and blow dried
.watchin.The computer screen
.listenin.Savage Garden “Truly Madly Deeply“
.eatin.Notta
.drinkin.Notta
.chattin.No one at this present time
.feeling.EXCITED cause tomorrow is Tuesday
.thinkin.How tomorrow is going to turn out…

Random

Poem that I found

It isn’t easy being so in love with you and not being able to see you every day.

There are times when I’d give anything just to be able to gaze into your eyes or hold you in my arms, even for a few minutes.

I always feel incomplete, like a part of me is missing, when we’re not together.

I know that, right now, this is how things have to be, but that doesn’t make it any easier to bear.

Everyday without you just reminds me of the joy you add to my life, joy that I’m missing…a lot.

So, don’t forget that I love you, that I’m thinking of you, and that I’m counting every minute until we’re together again

Well hey everyone. How is it going? It’s going over here on this end. Where who knows, it’s just going. I have had a ton of stuff on my mind lately and its quite scary to say the least. Well for the past couple of days I have thought of none other than Nate. I think the reason why I keep thinking of him more is because it’s the time that him and I got together and it was when him and I had a great relationship. I was reading stuff over from the past year and it kind of hit me that I am not completely over him yet, but enough to say that I could NEVER be with him again. Leah saw him the other day. I think Valentines Day was the hardest of all days…that I’ve had in a while. All I had to do is look at the rose that he bought me…which I still have hanging over one of my mirrors…and all the memories came rushing back. That day, that weekend…everything. *Deep thought* I was talking with Scooter about this and she said that I am always going to love him in some freaky way, shape, or form. I wish I didn’t still love him. And now that Pete and I aren’t a “couple” thinger, it makes matters 10 times as worse. I feel empty. I mean Pete and I are still friends…were seeing each other again. Just no titles or no ’strings attached’ if you want to say. Tomorrow I am going over there stay with him for the night, but when we talk on the phone it isn’t like it was. He wont call me ’hun’ or ’baby’ anymore like he use to. He still calls me ’deary’ and sometimes ill get a ’sweetie’ out of him…but that’s once in a blue moon. It hurts tons, but I guess that’s how things have to be. Its just really difficult, especially right now to be alone. I think this was the first Valentines Day that I have been alone in a few years. It hurts like no tomorrow.

Alright enough of me sobbing and all that stuff. Im going to go and do dishes and get ready for bed. Night everyone!! PLCG!!

-((Amanda))-