7 months?!?!

Evening to all of my opendiary family. Hope you all are well. Things here have been good…well for the most part.

The reason for the title is simple. I called my lawyer about my comp. case, and there is STILL nothing. I figured I’d call the Workers Comp. Board myself, so I did. I talked to 2 individuals who had real personality. Monologue tones…it was like talking to death. Anyways, after I got done telling the first, SWEET, individual about why I was calling, she told me that she had to transfer me to the appeals office. Ok, fine… Talked to the second, SWEET, individual. I told him why I was calling, and in his most caring voice he told me that it is still in appeal and there is no decision. It has been 7 months!!!! As of right now, [assuming I’ll win] TOPS owes me over $5,000 in back pay, plus travel and medication reimbursement. Plus, all my doctors want to get paid…and ugh, hello, I want my hand fixed. It’s not like I cut a part off…all it is is carpel tunnel and tendinitis. [For those who are interested about the condition of my hand, well it hurts all day everyday. Some days it feels like the bone in my arm has been sharpened to a point and scrapping against the inside slowly making its way out. (sick I know.) I still can’t bend in back like I should. If I try it feels like the muscles are being pulled off. Bending it forward it alright. The lump on my wrist seems to be getting bigger. When I bend my hand back as far as it will go, which isn’t far, maybe 20 degrees, their is a smaller lump inside that too feels like it’s getting bigger. The doctor says it’s more than likely a ganglion cyst.]

Seeing that my case is still in appeal, I haven’t been able to get treatment for my wrist. I got to 2 different doctors monthly for them to tell me to come back in a month, we can’t do anything for you. We’ve been trying to get me into a Neurologist for months now. Same the physical therapy. Everything is getting denied. Same thing will all the medication that I’m on. I have to pay out of pocket because nothing is being covered. I asked my lawyer why that was, seeing I did win when we went to court. He said that the first judgment is basically null and void seeing it has gone to appeal. I wasn’t too happy with that. I’m hoping something happens extremely soon. I want my hand fixed, and hell, the money would help a lot as well.

Other than that, things are good here. Pat and I are improving. I had a talk with the OB/GYN about my lack of sex drive. It’s been awful. For the past 4 months, Pat and I haven’t had a sexual relationship. I’m just so tired and stressed all the time. It takes a lot out of me when he’s the only one working to support our little family. Hell, I’m a handful. I have a champagne personality and we have a beer budget. Anyways, I took the OB/GYN’s advice about me taking control and not being afraid to let him know that I wanted to have sex with him. So far, twice in one week. He says that I’ve changed in this past week as well. He says I’m happier and playful…like when him and I first got together. I’m hoping I can keep it up. It has gotten so bad that I’ve told him to go have an affair. And he never fails to show me how much he loves me. He always tells me I’m silly and that he loves me, and that sex isn’t all that important. He comforts me when I should be comforting him. God, I love him.

Owen and Riley are good. Owen banged up his left eye. He took a face dive into the corner of the entertainment center, and you want to talk about panic. Woo. Pat ended up coming home that night. We thought we were hospital bound. But, Owen’s eye was tracking and he was running around and wasn’t falls or running into anything. The following morning…woof…his poor little eye was all but swollen shut. Violent purple, and his cut from where he hit looked awful. It was all red around the outside…and I know that that is a sign of an infection. He let me get the hair out of it, let me put a drop of peroxide on it [WITHOUT crying] and put a band-aid with neosporane. A day of that, and now it a pink scar color. The only thing we’re waiting for is the bruising to go away. The eye lids are purple. It goes from the end of the eye lid to the bridge of his nose, and it reaches up to his eye brown to the top of his cheek. It was awful, but he was a trooper. Every once and awhile he’ll bump it and he cries, but other than that he’s great. His tubes get put in on the 9th of April. I think I mentioned that. I can’t wait. I can’t stand to sit and watch my baby boy suffer with ear pain.

Riley is good. Nothing too crazy to update on her. She’s so independent. She can ride her Dora bike. Not by pushing her feet on the ground, but using the peddles. We are so proud.

Potty training is at a stand still at the moment. Frustration let me tell you.

Hmm…so my mother ended up taking Dan back. It hasn’t been 3 months since he moved out. Pat has already told me when they break up I’m out of it. The last time they split, myself and the twins went to my mom’s house for 3 days to make sure he didn’t run off with her stuff to turn around and take him back…yet again. However, the slutty thing about it is he spent the night last Friday at my mom’s and then went back to his apartment with the woman he left my mom for…go figure.

Ok…well I think that’s all for now. Pat’ll be home in a few minutes. Until I write again…love to all…and know that I read daily!! Toodles!!

♥ Amanda

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