He likes me, I think.

Avoiding work. Nothing new. I just screw myself doing this as I have to work late and all that. Really, I’m listening to a training and need something to do while I listen. So why not write an entry?

The amazing random info – Tom likes me. Like I think he genuinely likes me. I had this text when I woke up today – “I will say you are a shinning light in my fucked up life”… Okay, he spelled shining wrong but other than that… I thought it was super sweet.

Geez Heather – 2 months in exactly, all you talk and you randomly realized today he likes you? Well. Yeah. I need like point blank admitting. Not just nice gestures but like straight up facts. Hell, even now I’m already overthinking and maybe he was just telling me I’m nice but not telling me he liked me. I know, stupid, my brain lies to me. I’m working on it.

Last night he called to tell me his son got home tonight and mentioned “Dad – you really need Heather to come back and stay again. It’s getting dirty in here.” I laughed. He told me he felt it was kind of offensive like his son just wants me to clean up after him. Personally, I felt it was showing X likes me around and appreciates my obsessive cleaning. I wouldn’t do it if I didn’t enjoy it. I mentioned back I was just thinking about X and thinking I’d make him homemade banana bread if I had time before I go back.

We were also talking about my daughter yesterday and her crazy dating life. He made the comment if she is with someone else she’s cheating on the new guy. I pointed out she says they aren’t really together. He then tells me once you spend enough time together you just kind of default together and it’s cheating at that point. He sounded a little annoyed with me as I didn’t quite agree. Until you tell someone it’s exclusive, it’s not real. Then I realized later he was total referring to us which explains the annoyance and yeah, we spend a lot of time together. So, it’s nice to know he basically thinks we’re exclusive without saying it as I wasn’t really on that page – not that I’m seeing anyone else.

I slightly wish I was awake when he texted me so I could have replied right away and had more of a discussion. It makes me so happy with the nice text. I replied today and basically told him I felt the same but don’t feel his life is that fucked up. It’s definitely partially fucked up tho between work stuff and his kids.  Now to wait for him to reply again.

I’m still unimpressed with the distance. I just wish it was closer or like half the way. However, I’m excited to see where it goes. I’ve thought about it and I would move for the right person. But I can’t move until my grandma and dogs have all passed away. Figure that’s a few years from now as the dogs are 6, 7 and 12. I expect 4-6 more years for the youngest one. Sometimes I wonder if he’d move here. But he’s also got at least 3 years before his kids are out of his house and to college or married off. (G thinks she’ll be married at 16. That kid.) Figure either way, if this does work out we’ve got probably 3-6 years before we could live together. So we’ll just wait and see I guess.

I’m trying hard not to rush anything. I just want it to all be smooth and nice

I think I’ll head there Saturday or Sunday and then stay for almost 2 weeks. Yay!