The Good, The Bad & The [In-Love]ly

Holy shit she’s updating :/ That ho is still alive? V_V Yup I am. Some of you may remember me as the ninja formerly known as toilet >_>; Jess made me update, I’ve been kind of putting everything off lately… that and letting myself get depressed That and I’ve had nothing worthy to report of and I know I’m way behind on what everyone else is up to for which I am most undoubtedly sorry 🙁

The past week however… woah is all I can say. Totally didn’t expect what happened.

1) I’ve been promoted to mod of Rb of Anime League (just this morning) and more importantly
2) I think I’ve fallen in love.

At least if it isn’t love, it’s pretty close to it =/ It’s all gone so fast you see. Of course I’ve sort of had a crush on him for a while but I didn’t go near it since he was dating someone else. It’s funny because to start with I didn’t like him at all, I thought he was mocking me half the time we posted in the same threads .-. Then I learnt, that’s just him and I gave him back some slack )<

It wasn’t until we pulled this stunt on Al pretending to be each other in RB that we became friends. It got really confusing as we logged onto each others accounts and pretended to be us pretending to be us XD I learnt a lot from there on; 1) his relationship wasn’t going very good the past 3 months and 2) he’s a really awesome dude.

I still didn’t do anything though. Until he asked me if he could ring me .-.
7 days straight of chatting on the phone on an average of 6-7 hours a night really helps you know a person. We have the same sense of humour, the same music and movie tastes and basically just crap on about anything =/ I still didn’t tell him though. I was going to let it slide by and let my crush die in peace. Until he broke it off with his long time gf (it was a long distance relationship too; she lives in America) as he thought it wasn’t working. They’d both cheated on each other in the past and while he was dreadfully sorry that he’d done that to her; he found himself not loving her as much as he used to. I seriously just wanted him to be happy.

Wait I suposse I should give him a name. It’s Michael (a.k.a Seraphim on AL; Jess will know who I’m talking about). I totally thought he saw me as a buddy (ok so I know he can flirt a bit too but yeah thats just him -_-). Then later in the week when we were talking over the phone when he told me he liked me..in that way…o__o. I was kind of flustered and after a while I told him I liked him too.

"I know" he said.  Damn.  -_-  "Was I that obvious?" I  asked, annoyed at myself. He said "I figured it out last night when I said you were beautiful and you go embaressed and wouldn’t say anything. If i were a friend you would of just brushed it off" -_- Double damn. It was only saturday when he told me he loved me. O__o I know what you’re thinking "it’s rebound, he probably jumps from one woman to another" and its true these thoughts circle around in my head too; I am usually an overly cautious person… no one likes beind hurt afterall. And in all truth he said he wanted to wait to ask me out to show me it wasn’t rebound; but he couldn’t help himself >_>

It is a secret on al atm though. I don’t want Katy (his ex) coming  up and thinking I broke them up nor do I want others to speculate and say shit :/ I will however say I feel like a cradle snatcher as he’s only 17 atm; soon to be 18 (w00t I’m dating jailbait XDD). AND I ALSO TOLD MYSELF NOT TO GeT IN ANOTHER LDR )< BAD TONI.

He lives in Melbourne -.- The next state over. He is however going to try and visit me when he works up the money though =/ That’s a first, a guy visiting me for a change. I honestly don’t know how it will work out. Atm I’m going to try and be strong, land myself a job and get fitter (yes I still don’t have one; now you know 80 percent the reason for me being depressed, the other 20 percent includes my brother getting worse and my body going to rot lol). I wanted to surprise you all with "I HAVE A JOB!" but I don’t 🙁

And I’m going to pray it goes my way for once. I hope you all are doing well <3 I missed catching up.

~ToNi~