One big ball of anger coming right up

Obviously, referring  from the title, I am angry. Oh am I angry. At a lot of things. So this entry will just be pure rant. I advise that you don’t read it… I usually don’t let go this bad because I get over it by time I go to post but not atm. Oh no, so much drama.

Here is my flaming rage of anger list.

I am angry at;

-First and foremostly myself, because a) I feel useless and it’s all my fault. I should be doing more. Instead I allow things to drag me down and I put off stuff that I should be doing, need to to do. I am useless to myself at this point in time.
b) because I am letting myself get angry over little things
c) because I hate bitching, it is ugly and makes everything ugly along with it.

-My brother. Not just usual anger. This is because I heard him kick Rex. Look, Ben, I don’t care how fucking angry you are, don’t take it out on your damn dog. At this moment in time, I officially hate you.

-People who walk over you because they believe they are better than you… especially when you were only being nice to them. And then they only come to you when they need an ego boost. I dislike this.

-I also dislike being picked on for my sense of humour. If you don’t find me funny, fine. I don’t want to hear about it. I don’t think I’m absaloutely hilarious either but I don’t like being attacked because of it.

-Thinking there is double meanings behind what other people say. And, for that matter, people do not say things straightly. No beating around the bush, no coyness, just say it please.

-Being misunderstood.

-Hearing about other people being treated unjustly. Might not be my business but I hate it nonetheless.

-Pedophiles- I HATE THEM. always.

-Myself again; for making stupid mistakes, saying dumb things, taking jokes too far. This may be one of the problems why I feel so much lower in the human chain. Maybe I allow myself to be trodden on. -_-

-Feeling like a peace of meat. You know I bet there are guys out there who are great people…to other guys. Soon as they see a woman they like it’s all, "Let’s get some". Meh.

-Humanity. It is going to rot. I think I want to become a pinecone. Less emotional drama and brain siezures.

-The fact that anyone reading this, if they have not experienced the ranting of Toni before, will now probably  think of me in a different and most likely less respectful manner. I apoligise that I am not all sillyness. I also apoligize for seeming like an angry emo child. This is just all pent up, mostly self-rage. I am tired of feeling sorry for myself; this acchieves nothing.

This list is so anti-Toni. More anti-toni than I am.
I’ll be fine tomorrow. I hope.
I hope you all are fine too… the world needs to be happier.

~ToNi~

(I think I am due on, lol. This probably explains most of it. Oh yes and I am but slightly irritated at getting mistaken for a man all the time on anime league. What because it says ninja and my avatar has the pic of a bishounen they automatically think I’m a guy? My name is Toni- < female spelling. I considered putting up in my title that I am female, but then why should I have to explain who I am.).