A beautiful chord

I am always experiencing the world in terms of sound. How do I bring my life into harmony? I have to hear it, then everything makes sense. When I decided to study Japanese before ‘brushing up on’ (i.e. relearning) German, I think I sensed a harmony that wanted to happen. I think in terms of *sound* I can actually *hear* the chord that these three languages, or notes, if you will, the S, G, and J notes, perhaps, make, are the most harmonious combination of languages for me to be learning right now, especially putting an emphasis right now on the S and J notes. I realise how perfect it is to be studying these languages together when I hear each of these languages as a note that listened to more deeply are also chords made up of deeper and deeper fractals of chords.

It is easy to hear. Ah. If I am not using music, I think, and I feel this so much more keenly from a perspective of Japanese spirituality, maybe ai am mot using my talents, and I am not saying performance talents or knowledge or anything except that I forget that sound is the way I most powerfully process everything. And when I follow the sound, maybe that is me being natural and spontaneous.

I am actually saying that if I have to make a major decision in life, like I have teo things and have to find one more to go with them, that becomes simple when I decide the final note in this chord already composed of Spanish and German will be Japanese. I don’t know of anyone else who thinks this way. It must be neurodivergence, and maybe that is the essential core of my neurodivergence: God, help me, Buddha be my refuge, I think in music. The moment is worth being in now.

Japanese reminds me of the art of learning for its own sake and to be in this moment and make the most of it. It also reminds me to take action since I am not exactly an action-oriented sort of person unless you count learning hiragana characters in Japanese action.

I am also resonating with a book on music as a ground for philosophy and spirituality written from a Sufi perspective which feels almost too profound to read. The Mysticism of Sound and Music. But the book for me l, or the parts I have read, is way more than mysticism. It is practical, philosophical, and is hugely relevant to everything in my life, down to the very way I experience the world at its core: as vibration, as sound, as music.

When I am totally, naturally myself, as a tree is just itself, what do I do? This is an important energy shift and realisation about myself: hearing is thinking. Just convert whatever problem I am having into music and it is easy to come into harmony. I can’t even explain this, languages coming together into a chord is just one tiny example. I sense the gestalt of some complex constellation of things when I sense it in terms of what it would sound like. There is a sound or some correspondence to something auditory that can be heard in the musical language of my brain for everything visual, conceptual, probably everything period. From a Japanese perspective it would seem if I do not take advantage of this ‘gift’ (or curse) I am not being naturally and spontaneously myself.

Japanese and Spanish is like the only chord that is working for me right now but it is the best thing I could possibly be doing right now, the thing that gets me closest to flow and ikigai. It really is a beautiful chord and spending my life appreciating and discovering my life more deeply (or more honestly to get out of this fear so I can experience that at all) as a chord, now…