day three, really?

How is it even possible that we’re three days in and I am this behind? I know it’s because I did next to nothing over break, but that’s because I WAS ON BREAK!!!

There’s nothing to say, except that the days feel so long, and just getting myself to sit down and focus on work has been a losing battle. I’m in "I can’t seem to care" mode, and I hope it’ll pass soon. 

My classmate and downstairs neighbor is throwing his annual Dia de Reyes party this Friday. R invited a few of us over to his place to pre-game w/ some 4 Loko (god that stuff’s gross!). I might just get bombed out of my mind to mix things up a bit and to escape feeling like this for a short while. Hey, at least I don’t have to worry about finding my way home since I live right upstairs.

I finished watching Season 1 of The Walking Dead. It finally got good in the last 2 episodes. People really hyped this show up for me, but I was pretty disappointed, mostly by the cheesy dialog and how contrived some of the scenes felt. I will say that the thriller/suspense aspects of it are fantastic.

That’s all I got for today. Which seems to be the crux of my problem – I’m busy but not doing anything worth talking about. This makes my nightly phone calls to J problematic. Because I don’t feel like talking, I feel like going to bed and cuddling. Or maybe just going to bed.

He’s coming next weekend for my birthday. I still haven’t decided if I want to do something with all of my friends or keep it just the two of us. Right now, planning any of this feels like too much of a chore. My friends should just throw me a surprise party, lol. I’ve only ever been thrown a surprise party once (strictly speaking, one of my friends slipped up a bit with the surprise part), but it made me feel so special and loved. I want to say I could really use something like that now, but I’m not sure I could even appreciate it with the state I’m in, so it’s best saved for another time.

I’m being morose, I know. A few days tops, and things will be better.