assumptions

dearest bugger,
you told me to ignore wad u said..and forget abt it..and now u want me to sort of be back together with u…work hard for the sake of us… wad were u really thinking? i’m just so freaking confuse..can u for once tell me the truth wad is inside your mind..nvm abt me not being understanding…i just wanna noe rather than me kept assuming u and kept blaming myself.. are we fated to be so beyond depth and let things be just the way they are unsettled?..im so not gonna let it happen..but i carn do it alone.. u carn just be so damn passive…wad abt me? it’s not entirely my fault..how u expect me to make the move of wanting to be with u…when the actual fact that u left me first…hard and cold..have u forgotten dat? i tell u..i had not forgotten it..and it still fresh on my mind..why on earth do u still have feelings for me after all the bad things and hurt i had done to u? wad do u want me to do? tell me…clearly and specifically…i hate to keep thinking and brooding..it gave me migraines and it hurts alot..i just want u to be true to me…and noe the inner u…if u hate me assuming, then tell me…how am i not suppose to assume if this is how u always acted…pretending..and kept shrugging.. if u are trying to keep the status of being soo super duper luper passive..alrite fine..i respect ur decision…dun blame me for not having my own decision..for i merely respect urs…

i tell the best solution of all..
we let it go completely..
let go of me and u will find someone..
far far far far far much better than me and dat deserve ur love…
not me..
nvr me..
dun worry abt me…
i promised,darling, i will always love u no matter wad..
haven’t i always love you?
i tell u de truth, although it seem the best solution and i suggested it..
i very much hate it..
i dun lyk de idea..
but it doesn’t work dat way…really..

i want ur heart, brain, touch..
i want everything of you..

bearing the tots and pain of yearing for you..is it worth it?
tell me..

i’m still in love with you…