Is that you?

Because it’s me.

I haven’t been around.

And I am not sure anyone even noticed. Besides one person. Thank you.

But no, it’s fine.

I just don’t feel like I have anything to write about anymore.

Everything is good, really. Chewie is good. Ruby is good. Isaiah is good. Madaya is…as good as she could be. I still have a job. I can complain about nothing.

Chewie still isn’t working, but so what. It’s been a year now. We are surviving.

I started this journal out of desperation to try and save my life from a man who wanted me to continue breathing on only his terms.

He still writes the occaissional letter that shows up to my job since he doesn’t know where I live. But I throw them away. What I know is he is going to federal prison for a very long time. He is somewhere awaiting sentencing for something.

I feel safe as long as I know he is in jail. I don’t know where he is though. But that doesn’t matter.

I started to write a few entries last month and actually finished them. But they were boring. And I never posted them.

I feel like I only have something to write when I am hurting. And I am not hurting right now.

Well I spose it’s a good thing you are not hurting!

perfectly.imperfect

July 1, 2009

I’m glad you’re doing well. I was in CO for 10 days and nobody really noticed I was gone! Glad your ex is going away for a very long time!

Miapaws

I noticed that you were gone! I hope you come back…post those boring entries. I’m sure that what seems boring to you is not boring to everyone! **hugs**

Swiss Miss

I’m glad to see you here. I’ve missed you. Sorry to hear that Chewie isn’t work but I’m glad the family is doing well. Especially Isaiah.

**Nomad**

It’s good to see you! Thanks for the notes…they were just ion time. I like to give people their space, but I check on the m after 1 month, jsut to be sure all is well. Your notes and post came 1 month do the day, so I know things are okay, and I don’t have to intrude. Anyway, you may not be hurting (thank goodness!), but we hurt when you’re gon for so long. Bore us. Please. It’s so much better

than missing you and wondering about things. And i know I speak for at least 2 others when i say that, and i think you know who I mean. If not, then let me know and I’ll set up a meeting at Benihana’s.

Not boring! plz post them! 😛 Haha. I’ve missed you. 🙁

shroomi

It’s nice to hear from you whether it’s boring or not, just to know you are okay. I’m glad he’s going away, and that you and your family are doing so well.

EllaLou

Where ya been??? Good to see you back. You always have something to write about, even if it’s just that everything is good.

midnight muse

July 2, 2009