A Story Of Conquering Pain – An Addendum

It was interesting; only through the therapist’s capable guidance did she get me to have an empathic response for that child … me! 

 

All those years, I recalled that event (and many others) through the eyes of me as the “bad” child, deserving of the punishment.  By asking me to reverse my view and step over into the adult role to look back at that child through an adult’s eyes, she (the therapist) exposed my natural desire to protect the child, any child.  It was only at that second, not before, that I had an empathic response for me as the child.  I clearly saw it as child abuse and something one would never do to a child.  It took me stepping out of myself to see it.  It truly was an “ah ha” moment, a pivotal moment in my life …

 

 

 

 

 

Thank you Doctor Judy  R. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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And this answers my question as to whom the little boy portrayed is.. *sigh* You’re a wonderful person Bruce, for being able to forgive, and heal. Thank you for sharing, and for touching all who reads.

March 20, 2004

hugs… Those “ah ha” moments are the ones that change our lives.

March 21, 2004

ryn: Yep, back to where I moved from… :o)

wow thank you

Wow, another trully wonderful entry

thank you for asking me to stopby you know exactly how I feel!

March 21, 2004
March 22, 2004

Okay. Wow. Ironically, I’m more open to the truth in the above because I’m in a blissfully quiet chemical state. I’m afraid I believe Red is right, however… some people ARE just BAD. Some people… And everything’s by degrees, across a spectrum, and (some) murderers are but at one extreme. Rainbows. But that’s me. You had a hammer thrown at you. I need to get back to you when straight

March 22, 2004

I’ve put a question in my diary and, after reading these past entries, want to know your opinion on it.

RYN: Yep, I gave up coffee, lol. It’s not that I’ll take a sip; it’s that I am tormented by continuing WANTING to take a sip, and I wonder if I am NOT, indeed, doing a disservice to myself and my husband, if I stay, given my wanderlust. THAT’S my issue with this thing, not whether or not to imbibe. I won’t. I CAN’T. Stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid, I agree.

March 22, 2004

I love “ah-ha” moments.

RYN: What, freaking out about always wanting to take a sip?

Bless you, Dear Nunz, for sticking with it, in trying to help me. Ironically enough, both my ex boss and her husband feel THEY are also trying to help me. And some people truly are better off “alone” inasmuchas they are not in a relationship. I know the realities of relationships, and they all have their drawbacks. Why discard another when they are equally good/bad? Hmm… my jade is showing

March 23, 2004

Incredible.

April 1, 2004

But how do you get to forgiveness with so much pain and anger in the way? It sounds so simple in writing but its so deeply painful and hard. I’m glad to see you made it to the other side!

Thank God for the therapist.