Killing love

There is an unrelenting love that grows within me, no matter how much my earth is poisoned, love grows through the cracks like weeds in a hot sidewalk. I wish I could stop it, but it’s out of my control, love takes hold of my heart when I least expect it to, bringing my humanity to it’s knees, it surprises me every time. So human, very human, it isn’t something tangible that can be held within a box, compartmentalized and wrapped neatly with a bow. Love is messy, and humiliating, and there’s just so much love, I love too hard and I’m scared if I acknowledge the love that grows within I’ll be consumed until my endless winter is demolished by this damned sunlight. I love the protective snow that blankets my mind in the winter, I don’t want to change, please don’t let my winter end