Update

Things are starting to look up again.  Laurie admits to one problem, though not to being addicted to her meds, but if "overmedicating to get away from the pain" is as good as it gets, and she DOES see that it’s a problem, I guess I have to accept that.  Help is on the way, either way.  I would PREFER she admit she’s an addict, but as long as she’s willing to get help, it should help, no matter, right?

She pulled that "he’s crazy" routine with the doctor again another day…about two days ago….I was seriously considering divorcing her, but I just can’t do that.  I told her I’d take my kids (who are 1400 miles away lol) and leave.  

That’s another thing she hasn’t thought about.  This is not only about what effect it has on her.  It hurts us ALL.  Elisabeth and Tiffany don’t want their mother to die, and our grandchildren don’t deserve to be informed that their Grandma was too selfish to think of anyone but herself.

I’m trying to trust in her again, and it’s surprisingly easier than I thought it would be, after the initial shock and hurt wore off.  For the first time, I believe that she’s lucky to have me.  I don’t think anyone else would put up with this drug shit.  Not that I’m a bed of roses, mind you.

Anyway, I’ll keep you posted.

Love to all,

Hermy