Uh huh
Proving it, bit by bit……
I just spent hours working on a song, which I liked a lot. It made me so happy that it came together so easily.
Then I played it for Mikey or Hank or whomever may be out now. I don’t want to ask because Lola keeps asking, and I don’t want to take the brunt of his temper if it’s Hank.
I called the song "My Fight Song". It was supposed to cheer me up, and it did….until I played it for Mikey.
After being so pleased with it, it hurt my feelings something awful not even to receive a "That sucked, Piers!" Even that would have been better than nothing.
Well hell.
The song was about fighting myself, really. I have to change, and I know it. I have a mate in that body, but I guess Oscar damaged Garritt, because I am having to face these things alone. Mikey probably hates me, and I couldn’t say I blame him, because sometimes I am nasty as fuck to him. I blame him sometimes for problems that we have, especially regarding Elisabeth.
Fuck blame.
I just want to get better. Wish I didn’t have to do it alone, but if I do, I do. And I will.
Can’t hold a grudge. That would defeat the purpose of it all. I seem to be the keeper of adulthood rage in this body. Oscar holds the rage that hangs on from childhood.
So rage, disappear, please. I can’t do this anymore. It hurts everyone. I am the meanest person in this body, and I’m so tired of being mean. I’m tired of the rage. That’s new for me. I don’t know what to do or be without it, really. Help me find my purpose now?
I’m sorry.
PdC
I don’t think your mean Piers just mad and Garrets ok just were tired today like u r not much sleep and uve had even less we liked the song we just got all involed in the badge thing again im sorry mikey
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Herman the song was good. Mikey did not mean to ignore Piers. Mikey is exhausted and I can see why. Both of you have been running on little sleep.
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