So close to losing her….

I was about to call my friend Lola and see how things are and update her on how things are here.  My opening statement about things here was to be, "Well, we almost lost Mikey a few days ago."  And that’s when it hit me.

We almost lost her. 

At that thought, I had a really panicky moment or two.  I texted our daughter, and she called me, thank God.  She talked me through the panic attack. 

What would I have told our daughters if my wife had been unlucky enough to die this time?  How would I tell them that their mother was dead?  That the love of my life was no longer here, and it was because of something she did to herself?  How would we survive that?

How would I explain to Nathaneal that his Grandma Laurie had killed herself accidentally?  Would the family still want anything to do with me?  Wouldn’t only five years of marriage feel like the most giant gyp of all time?  

And then something else hit me…..tomorrow is my 35th Birthday.  I’d probably be burying my wife as my birthday present.  Whoa.  To put it mildly.

I’m so glad we didn’t lose her.  Her blood pressure got down to 83/63….damn close.  Too damn close!!!!!!!!! 

Thank God we’re both checking into rehab possibilities for her. 

Herman

all of us