My mind is Tiffany twisted….

I had another nightmare – two-part nightmare this time.

Adam found out last night that he is about to go to jail today. At least, he found out that there are charges against him. Not too sure if he knows he’ll be locked up. That’s what my dreams were about.

I don’t remember many details of the first one, but it was horrible, because at one point, I had to tell My Mikey that Tiffany was dead. Adam had killed her. Somehow, for the second dream – I guess my mind had to “correct” the first one – Tiffany was alive and we were there with her in court. Adam went off on her, calling her a “fucking bitch” and saying he’d “fucking kill [her] sorry ass”. I jumped in front of Tiffany as he lunged at her. I said, “Over my dead body, you goddamned spic motherfucker!” And Dad (aka I) proceeded to protect my daughter by opening a can of whoopass.

Thank God the dreams are over. What I’m NOT so thankful for is that I’m sitting here in a HUGE nic-fit. I smoked one cigarette, but I inhaled very lightly. I was disgusted that I even lit one. Smoking is a bitch. Quitting is a bigger one!!!!!

We have to go to Nanny’s in about 1 1/2 hours. I think this noisy keyboard has woken My Mikey up. Well, probably Hank.

Gotta go! Happy Valentine’s Day! And Happy 28th birthday to my baby brother Johnny!!!

My Mikey, I love you forever times PI cubed plus one,

Your Jack

Mangocitrus

February 14, 2006

Those dreams would suck. 🙁 Quitting is hard. My dad is trying to quit smoking right now and he’s having a really hard time. Good luck to you. *hugs*

Ryn: thanks! That’s nice to hear. I totally love reading you because I never ever know what to expect either! I find people in general very interesting… But you guys are really interesting. It’s just so neat to see that you’re so open about everything. You know? People are so caught up in society and what they’ll think that often they just suppress anything like that, that they may have …..

… and keep everything botteled up inside because they don’t want to “offend” anyone, or have anyone think they’re different, and they just end up harming themselves. I dunno. I’m babbling. But I think it’s great that you talk openly,and I think if people don’t like you for who you are (who you “all” are) then that’s their problem…. I think you’re great! 😀 Happy Valentines Day….

too bad we can’t make a road trip to cali. i would take care of adam, and bring tiff back with me.