Meet the raging reject
My Mikey, I love you
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My font color and I match, about now. Mikey just got off the phone with Elisabeth. It’s the first time we’ve heard a peep from her in a while.
I’m an awful parent. I know we should call Elisabeth sometimes, but I honestly have no desire to, anymore. I extended myself so many times in the beginning, and she took my hand, then turned it and slapped me in my face with it. Now, she can reach out. I won’t make her slap herself. I’ll probably beg for a hug.
I hate being such a rotten, miserable bitch. It is not easy to face up to the fact that, as a parent, I completely suck. I feel such an intense desire to punish my daughter for not feeling more dependent upon us, emotionally, especially. We can’t help with finances, because I am a deadbeat piece of shit who can’t stand a crowd for more than a few minutes at a time.
I want to die. I will not kill myself, but I have no desire to live right now. I feel as if I’ve lost my children, and I can’t deal with it. Tiffany’s situation is almost ready to change, and we can talk to her again. No one will ever know how much happier that will make me. I hate being out of touch with our girls.
But stubborn pride or something mysteriously like it keeps me from giving in (to WHAT would I be giving in?!!!!) and calling Elisabeth first.
I wish someone would shoot me in the head. I already feel as if my heart has been shot.
The nasty, rotten, hateful Louise,
Betty
Oh Betty, I don’t know what to say other then: THERE IS NO WAY THAT YOU ARE A BAD PARENT!!!! Elisabeth is just acting that way because she’s a teenager, and that’s what teenagers do. They drive their parents crazy. I wish I could make it easier on you, but being half way across the country, I can’t do anything that I would like to. Lots of love to you and Mikey!!! John
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PS. Did Mikey tell you about our plans? We came up for some good vacation ones. Lots of love, John
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*hugs* I don’t think you suck as a parent, I think that all parents get frustrated and such. I hardly think that makes you a bad parent. *hugs*
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You guys will talk again you’ll see. As she ages she’ll see how important a family is and you two will reconcile. 🙂
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Stop it as Jack loves to say…..I love you ok..I love her right now I also dislike her alot talking with her often hurts but I suppose that is part of her growing up.. I remember a time when Elisabeth couldnt be away from me she would cry if we had to go someplace and couldnt take her along. Now she is being Miss Independant USA and I know in my heart this is due to the outside influences (nn)
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You not a bad parent ok things are well confused right now..I hope this will change..I actually know it will change she may seem hard hearted right now this is due to where she is in comparision to us.. When she gets here you will see the Elisabeth I know.. Away from the otuside influences this kids is utterly fabulous
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