Life can be ironic

Like that’s a newsflash.

Last night, I was worried about the possibility of losing my wife in the near future.  This morning, I find out that one of my friends’ husbands passed away yesterday.  

Life can be so cruel and ugly.  I’m seriously getting really tired of the randomness.  While I stick by saying I enjoy being alive, there are certain parts I wish I could either skip or fast-forward through.  But it’s not a movie, it’s life.

I’m feeling really really down right now, and I’m still depressed about the whole pill thing.  I don’t know what to think right now.  I don’t want my wife dead.  I’m so NOT ready to face this same, tired issue again, either.