Lately

 

My Mikey, I love you

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Life has been good.  Touchy, but good.  For us, anyway.  Not so much for everyone in the family.

We had Benny here for a visit two weeks ago.  It was nice, the way he and Elisabeth functioned like a full-grown, already-married couple.  They interact well, and Elisabeth was so much happier than she’s been here.

We’ve all had issues, lately, regarding My Mikey’s use of medication, particularly the narcotics again.  They change him, and there are times when I flat-out do not like him, when he’s on the meds.

I always love him….make no mistake about it.  I do not have to LIKE somebody to love them, though.  Mikey and Elisabeth don’t have that concept down, yet.  MH always told me, as a child, that she loved me but didn’t like me, so I got the concept pretty early, I guess.  I didn’t like her, either! lol

There’s been really bad, sad, ugly news about my sister, lately.  Her husband of TEN YEARS recently decided he wants a divorce.  He didn’t discuss it with her or anything…just found a place online to buy the papers, put a payment through on THEIR bank account, and kept quiet.  The next morning, MH discovered a charge on her bank site for divorce papers.  It was only half the payment, so there MIGHT be another one.  I have no idea if b-in-law has changed his tune or not.  MH said he was stunned when she asked him how long it would take him to move out of the house.  He seemed totally surprised, she said.  He said it didn’t make sense for him to leave, because she’d be scrambling to find help with the kids, etc., so he may as well stay.  I would assume he thought he wouldn’t even need to change rooms, though I don’t know that.

The kids know.  MH told them that Daddy didn’t want to be married to Mama anymore.  She asked them if they would want to stay with Mama or Daddy, and that either place would be fine if they wanted it.  They chose Mama, which made Uncle Hermy REALLY GLAD!

I have no idea where it’s headed.  I’m only sad that my sister is in this position.  She and I were raised not to believe divorce was a viable alternative.  Marriage means you work through your problems.  I’m not always the greatest at this problem solving stuff, but I’ve been married for two and a half years already, and I am not going to split up with my spouse unless it is not my choice.

I’ve come close to giving up.  Very close.  Sometimes, I resent the medications so much….rather, what they do to him and his seeming dependence on them….that I am ready to pray for freedom and/or either of our deaths.  I don’t WANT either of us to die, but we seem hell-bent on killing ourselves in one way or another!!!!!  It really bugs!

There have been issues regarding the children, which I didn’t know whether or not to expect.  I thought there MIGHT come a time when it was "she’s MY daughter".  Well, there has.  The first time we didn’t agree on something regarding Elisabeth, all of a sudden, she was not MY daughter anymore.  She wasn’t "ours"….she was "Mikey’s".  Well, I don’t play that game.  I told Mikey that if I were to be that dispensable, he may as well divorce me or kill me.  She either IS or IS NOT my daughter.  I told him nothing less would do.  He said she is.  I told him, "You’re goddamned right she is!  And she will be until the day I die!"

I fought HARD to get my family, and I’m not letting it go.  I have a wife, two daughters, and four grandchildren.  I have a Japanese son-in-law, three half-Mexican grandchildren, and a Mexican future-son-in-law, so we can’t afford prejudice to run rampant in this family, either.

And I’m only 32!!!!!!  Such a full life!

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e=”background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);”>Mikey just told me that I am the favored parent, anyway, so Elisabeth is my daughter…I had her, Mikey doesn’t lay any claim to her anymore!  LOL  He was joking, so please don’t react badly to it.  It does seem like Elisabeth LIKES me more.  She LOVES her mother, but she doesn’t seem to like her much.

 We’re okay.

Much love to everyone, as always,

Jack