“I might be craaaaazaay!” – Lori entry

The Lori referenced in the title is my cousin, Lori Robinson. 

Three days ago, she was riding her horse in an arena, when she waved her hand in front of her face, fell off her horse, smacked her face on a nearby fence, and then died. It winds up, she had a massive heart attack, and the autopsy shows that as the cause of death. Thank God, because when I think of what my poor, sweet cousin would have FELT if she’d been alive when she smacked her face on the iron fence….

Today is the "viewing". In a lot of places, they still say it’s a wake. I have been having a hard time keeping my mind functioning properly, but it is getting clearer and more REAL as the time to go see her for the first time in death draws closer. In three and a half hours, we go see her. I’m putting it off absolutely as long as I can, because it hurts. 

She is the first one of us born and raised together to die, and ALL of us are freaked out. My poor aunt and uncle…I shudder to think of what lies ahead for them. I love them so much, my Mama’s sweet sister and her husband, whom I call the nicest man in the world. They have been so kind to me in my lifetime that I HOPE I can bring kindness, love, and maybe a tiny bit of happiness to them now.

Laurie, my wife, is doing better. She had a Celect Vena Cava Filter put inside her, and it is good, so far. 

I don’t really know much else to say, because my mind is kinda DUH-ish right now.

Love to everybody,

Hermy