Happenings of late

PROVE IT, HERMY……

First of all, this is Betty, not Jack.  It is important to know that for this entry.  I am not angry, per se.  Well, at me, but at no one else, really.

Jack can’t hack it right now.  Mikey’s in pain, and he’s feeling useless again, so I’m out for now.  This damn pain thing is about to drive all of us nuts, including Mikey.

We need a new bed, King Size, preferrably, but anything would work right now.  Today, whether Mikey approves or not, I’m going to see if taking off the bottom mattress helps make the bed sturdier.  If we wake up with the morning fireworks of late, I don’t know how much longer we’ll survive!  Executive decision : Change the goddamned mattress!

I’m the one who posted the lyrics earlier.  That’s how I feel right now.  Nobody understands, or at least it feels that way.  I don’t know what to believe about myself right now.  Focusing on my own strong points have never really been my forte’.  It may seem different from some of the entries I’ve typed before, but you might be surprised.  I sit here now close to tears because I can’t adequately explain myself to Mikey.  I want him to understand that I’m not his enemy, and that I’m not aiming to be cruel with some of the things I say that are on the harsh side.  Yet….I fail to impart that every time.  More room to try to succeed next time?  I can only see it that way.

So you’ve got me in a weak moment, much as I hate to admit even to having those.

I’ve just got to pray.  That’s all I know to do anymore.

Mikey, I love you.  Jack is crazy about you.  He’ll be back when the pain level eases.  He can’t deal with the fact that he can’t do anything about your pain, and we don’t need the drama that could accompany his feelings.  So I am out, for God only knows how long.

We’ll make it.  We have to, damnit!

ELF