Getting old?

I think I may be getting to be an old man before my time! I woke up at a few minutes until 7am. It is now 7:19am.

Now ask me WHERE I woke up! Was I in bed with my hubby? Was I all snuggled up with the love of my life on the evening of Valentine’s Day? Of course not!!!! I woke up in the damn blue recliner in our living room, where I fell asleep last night, thinking that I’d wake up when My Mikey went to bed.

There seems to be something about that chair that makes it impossible to wake me up, too. I am sure My Mikey went to bed kinda sad, because he has gotten used to sleeping with me now. I don’t particularly LIKE sleeping alone, but I can do it, obviously. Damnit, though….my step-dad falls asleep in his chair all the time. So does Mama, for that matter, but she’s not old, so…..Wayne (step-dad) is! LOL

I feel bad, but not like I have been lately. Not to the point of slinking down in my chair and bawling my eyes out. Louis is not out this morning, honey! No, this is Jack, plain and simple….a little of Jacky’s inspiration on the ole guy, I guess.

Last night, while talking to Mama on the phone, she admitted that it seemed like I was “doing better” in Waco. Well, it suddenly dawned on me that if I can do better there, I can do better here, too. What’s the damn difference, you know? Why does it matter that Mama keeps me a bit busier here? It shouldn’t, so I’m gonna do my best to see that it doesn’t! After all, Mama is going through a very hard time, and if her own son can’t be her support system, who the fuck can? Lord knows her husband won’t be right now! He’s got some kind of burr up his butt about her having My Mikey and me out at their house. I don’t know what would satisfy him….to see my mother have a nervous collapse and maybe a heart attack from the strain? FUCK THAT SHIT!!!! I will help my mother if we agree she needs me to help. If Wayne doesn’t like it, then Wayne can kiss all of our asses! I’m not going to let him stop me, but I AM going to see if Johnny will call him and have a serious talk with him. Man has got to realize that Mama needs help.

Anyway……

We’ll see how the day goes. I’m about to read some favorites and note at least Tim, because he had the V-Day blues.

My Mikey, I love you forever times PI cubed plus one,

Your Jack