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My Mikey, I love you

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Today, it’s not so much about rage. It’s more about inanity, insanity, and whininess.

I think Goldie is dead. She’s been on a rapid decline for the past three or four days….worse than before. The fucking Humane Society wouldn’t pick her up because she was owned and not a stray. I’d have to bring her in and pay $40 to leave her just so they could kill her. If I’d HAD the $40, I would have, but I didn’t have it. Fuckers!

So, even though they could have lived up to their goddamned name of HUMANE, they were INhumane and inhuman and forced my hand to leave my dog here to suffer and die. I tried to take care of her, but she wasn’t being helped by food, water, attention, or even the little bits of medical treatment we could give her.

So now we are going to put Bandit down. I don’t want to, but I’m afraid she only LOOKS healthier but isn’t.

Moot. That’s my existence.

Pd-fucking-C

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Ok, now it’s 2:25pm. Since I missed lunch, I’ve been home most of the day. Apparently, while I left to buy smokes, RayJay hauled our dogs off. Bandit was still alive, but she is most likely heading down the same path as Goldie did. If he did it while I was still here, I wonder why I don’t pay more attention.

Jess, I told the HS too many details about our dogs to call them in as strays. I have a very recognizable voice, from what I’ve been told, so I didn’t think it would work. I asked RayJay yesterday if he would take them to the HS for us, and he said he would this morning. Maybe when I heard Bandit barking/whining earlier was when it happened.

Anyway, they’re both gone now.

I don’t want to focus on it right now. I’m not supposed to be sad right now. I don’t want to bring Mikey down. He’s in a decent mood, and I don’t want to be responsible for bringing that to a screeching halt.

PdC

p.s. I’ve realized that I SUCK at properly caring for outside animals, so

NO MORE OUTSIDE DOGS FOR ME!!!!

Only chihuahuas until the end of time.

Mangocitrus

May 16, 2006

Sorry to hear about your puppies. Cant’ you call the humane society and tell them the dogs are strays?

Jacksbetterhalf

Yeah inside dogs baby I still think its my fault they got so sick they were ok Till I had the bright idea to give them there shots myself. Maybe a pommy like the one we took care of she looked so foxy not sexy foxy but cute doggy foxy guys ok or like Diablo I really like his attitude Mikey

Mikey, you’d better stop blaming yourself! You had no way of knowing – still don’t, for that matter – if those shots would actually make them sick or not. It is NOT your fault. Yeah, love, Piers

lolamae

Sorry to hear about the dogs. Hugs. For some strange reason your older diary entries were popping up from my favorites list. I was like what the hey? Anyway, I think you do better with small inside dogs. Do not blame yourself.

Phoenix poet

How sad. It’s very possible that they could have gottn some disease (see David for details) that would make them sick like that. I don’t know what it’s called or anything, but it’s incurable, so most likely, there isn’t anything you could have done. I can’t believe that the humane society wouldn’t help you though. That’s the whole point of the humane society. Lots of love, John