Attempted to mend a long-broken fence

Back in 1994 or 1995, I made a really stupid mistake and hurt a dear friend whom I loved with all my heart.  I hurt him so much he has not spoken to me since then.  That’s about 15 years of not speaking to the first great male love of my life.  I’ve sent messages to Matt through the years, periodically, to ask how he’s doing.  He’s never answered.  It finally dawned on me that I had never APOLOGIZED for hurting him the way I did.  So I did tonight.  I sent him a message on Facebook.  Short, sweet, and to the point.  I apologized, said all I wanted was forgiveness.  

Now, we wait and see if he can bring himself to accept my apology….and hopefully, let me know about whether I’m forgiven or not.  I don’t ask for a continuance of the once-close friendship, though that would be really nice. 

Damnit, I’ve grown up so much since I was 19 or 20.  It’s amazing what time does to a person. 

For Jack’s sake, I hope Matt DOES accept the apology and let us know it.  I don’t care if we ever speak again beyond that, because this has been a LONG time of being ignored, and it hurt me back so much.  Tit for tat.

So….I don’t have much else to say.

PdC