Afraid

My Mikey, I love you

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Tomorrow is the due date on rent, and we haven’t and can’t pay it. If John V refuses to let us move into his guest house, we’re toast!

I’m getting more and more nervous, as morning approaches. I know what will happen the day after tomorrow, if not tomorrow itself. Alenna will come over here and talk shit to us about not paying the rent….as if we’ve EVER missed it! We’ve always paid on time and the full amount – by the due date, too!

I just know how she is.

I took a Melatonin, because, even though I’m not sleepy, I know I BETTER go to bed as soon as I can, or I’ll start going into a cycle of panic attacks any ole time now. I don’t want tomorrow to get here yet!!!!!

Wait! I just realized it’s not THIS morning, but the one after. Still, I’m nervous as a long-tailed cat in a room full of rocking chairs, to quote Loretta Lynn.

One more day. Then, we face being homeless squarely in the eyes. If John says no, then we literally have NO PLACE TO GO!!!!!

And John and David, we can’t get there. I know you’ve offered us a place, but how would we GET there?!!!

Fuck!

Love to all,

Jack

Phoenix poet

September 5, 2006

We would find a way to get you here of course! Lots of love and hugs and everything else. John

david.

Agreed. We would help you get here of course. We don’t have alot of extra room (as you know) but we would be happy to have you here with us instead of half way around the country! Would your family REALLY let you and Mikey end up homeless? I really truly hope that they wouldn’t be that cold hearted. Even if they didn’t like Mikey, you’re still part of their family, and no matter what, family’swhat matters. Lots and lots of hugs and kisses to you and Mikey! david.