4:46pm – hating myself again

PROVE IT, HERMY……

Again, I have gone off the deep end.  I called Mikey’s number, and when I got the voicemail, something inside me snapped.  I’ve been facing the day all by myself, and I need him so badly.  Doesn’t he realize that?

I think he had a lab today.  He told me he has to get more bloodwork done.  Maybe that’s where he is.  It sure would be nice to know.  I miss him, and I ache for him.

SO ACHE, YOU DIRTY BITCH!!!!!!

WHO GIVES A FLYING FUCK?!!!!  ALL YOU DO IS FUCK THINGS UP ANYWAY, YOU CUNT.  ACHE.  HURT.  SUFFER.  DIE, YOU NASTY BITCH, DIE!!!!!!