4:33am – HOSPITAL DAYS

PROVE IT, HERMY……

Today, My Key goes into the hospital.  He will probably be there until Wednesday.

He keeps telling me we’ll be in touch via the cell phone he got especially to keep in touch with me, but I can’t be soothed by that for some reason.  He says on smoke breaks, he’ll call me.

I’m not going to leave the house until he’s out, I guess.

He would’ve been here for five hours had he not gotten sick again.  A goddamned staph infection popped up at the last minute, and he had to miss his second flight.  There are people close to us who are hurting him with their lack of belief.

I have to believe…..have to.

He’ll come to me.  He says he will, and I have to believe it.  I make myself believe, because where would he be without my belief?  Where would I be without his loving kindness and support?  Without HIS belief….I am nothing.

I’m petrified, people.  My safety net is being cut out from beneath me.  If he were HERE, god-fucking-damnit, I could go visit him in the hospital.  As is, I am almost 2000 miles away and useless, as usual.

My Key, My Mikey, I love you forever times pi cubed plus one,

Your Jack