4:19pm – Peaceful

As it is time to be on this day. My loving husband has been very patient with me today, and he can never know how grateful I am for this fact. He is the most beautiful person in the world. I have been altering like crazy today. Thank God I’m back to being me, Jack.

Let me explain…. This day, 15 years ago, my father was killed in a traffic accident. I didn’t anticipate having as hard a time this year as I have before. Up until today, it did not make me as sad, desperate, despondent (choose your own word!!!) as usual. Today, though….I woke up, knowing what day it was, in a bad frame of mind. Actually, Louis woke up. He is the youngest one within me, that I know of. I do not know his exact age, and I don’t think he does, either. He is often out nowadays when I get depressed. Louis really misses Daddy. It is his hope that Hank will love him the way we know Daddy loved us.

 My Mikey has been so patient with us today. When I cried, he let me. When I wanted to sing, he let me. When I got quiet, he let me. There was no pressure to be anything I am not or do not want to be. That is one of the things I love most about My Mikey. There is never pressure to be anything other than ME!!! Likewise, I’m trying my best to make it clear to him that there is no need for him to be anything but himself. He is an awesome man. I wish he knew that.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder…..funny….he sees ME as beautiful! Little does he know just what I see in him. Love, trust, grace, loyalty, dignity, support, the ability to cherish what he has as is, such profound easiness of manner and style. My Mikey is all that and far more.

Count my blessings? Too many to name, folks, but at the top of the list is this :

I have My Mikey, and for him I shall forever be grateful. I cherish my husband, and I hope he knows this.

If I have been unable to show it as much as I like, there is an old saying that rings true in this situation :

Practice makes perfect!!!!

My Key – Oh, Mikey, are you EVER My Key – My Mikey, I love you forever times PI cubed plus one,

Your Jack