2:55am – Does My Mikey need me right now?

PROVE IT, HERMY……

I just woke up a bit ago. It’s not like me to wake up in the middle of the night anymore, and I’m thinking maybe Mikey will be calling. Maybe he’s having a bad dream. Sometimes, we seem rather mysteriously (perhaps psychically) connected.

I just got back from Austin tonight, after being there since Friday nght. I was supposed to be back Sunday morning, bright and early, but that didn’t happen because my sister wasn’t able to catch up on sleep over the weekend, and she was my ride back.

We now own a refrigerator, stove (with oven), washing machine, and a lawn mower again. That is a great deal of what was stolen from us last week. There is still a dryer on the way and a television. We didn’t have a stove before, so that is a bonus. It is a small one, but I find it to be rather cute. Also, as another bonus, there was a free-standing vent hood in the apartment we got the stove from, and the lady who owns the place invited us to take anything else we liked, so I got it, too.

Jade Mystique, I got your letter. Well, it was the second one from you. Thank you for what you said. I hope things start going well for you. Pneumonia sucks, girl!

Dev, Persona, and I’mhishero (formerly Daltonsmommy)….thank you for your continued support via the notes. Life has been sending me for loops lately, but I will tell you how I see that overall…..it makes for an interesting ride. At least I can never honestly say my life is boring. Maybe melodramatic sometimes, but not boring!!!!

I am very tired right now, but I have the feeling I should stay awake for a little while. Methinks My Mikey is gonna need me. I woke up with a sour stomach, so I’m also afraid he’s vomiting right now, which is a possibility, because his tummy has been awfully stubborn lately, too.

Jacky and Betty have not always wanted to behave lately. I, Jack, have been getting depressed A LOT lately, and when this cat’s away, those mice will play….and they like sometimes to play cat and mouse with MY MIKEY!!!!! I feel like whipping their asses for the things they say to my precious husband sometimes. Last night, when I was depressed, Jacky came out and told Mikey we’d LIKE to get him home on December 13, which is the newest pending arrival date, but that he just doesn’t count on it. He thinks something will happen to change plans again. I must admit, I fear the same thing. It seems like no matter how hard we try, things fuck up for us. Sometimes I wonder if it means Mikey doesn’t really want me, but then I hate myself for doubting him. His loyalty, love, guidance, and devotion show me how much he cares, and I feel like an ingrate when I entertain the notion of his missing THIS flight. Even if he does miss it, somehow, the door to our home is always open to him. Home never EVER goes away. I am his home, as he is mine.

Elisabeth has a procedure to put a catheter into her heart on December 10, which is why we are waiting as long as we are to bring Mikey home this time. From time to time, I feel like I’m always put second to a female, but that’s a very selfish attitude considering how sick our girl is. Maybe Mikey feels like I put him second to my sister, which I don’t. I understand that he’s concerned about our gal being okay from her procedure. Then, when he gets here, I will always hold him close. I’m not letting him out of my grip again. The date of his arrival will place him here four days after our one-year anniversary. After all this time, I am more anxious than ever to have him here, and I’m NOT letting go.

My Mikey Baby, I am sorry we have caused so much havoc for you lately. Confidence levels are lacking, but that is no reason we should make YOU pay a price. Please forgive us, baby. I have allowed the others inside me to come out when I get down, and I know that Jacky, in particular, is liable to say hurtful things. Betty is mean sometimes, but she is also honest. Jacky only cares about one way – whatever works for his benefit. Luckily for Sean, that includes him in the view. I wish it included us.

I love you with all my heart, My Key. Please forgive me, my darling. I don’t deserve you , but that makes me appreciate your love even more. You give so beautifully, baby, and I wish I could do for you what you do for me. Maybe someday I can.

I love you forever times pi cubed plus one,

Your Jack

p.s. Please give Hank a hug from me. Betty blows a kiss for him and attaches a great big “I LOVE YOU” to it. Also, please kiss my baby boy Petey for me, and tell Charlie, Peter, and Sean I say hi and I love them, too.