10:05pm – I don’t know what’s wrong with me

I have had a bad feeling all evening, and I don’t know why.  It’s getting really nerve-wracking, too.  I hope everything is ok with Mama and with our girls.  I know my sister MH is having problems with her back, but otherwise, I think she’s ok.  Johnny?  Well, someone hopefully would have told me if there was bad news on his front.

So what is it?

I was lying down in the room earlier, and I suddenly CRAVED My Mikey’s presence.  Louis and Oscar both tried to send him telepathic messages to come back there, because, for reasons I don’t know, they were afraid to let us get up out of bed, at first.  Needless to say, it didn’t work.  They’ve always tried to reach out and grab other peoples’ minds, though.  On ne sais jamais!

Anyway…..

Two more hours, and we should have a paycheck in the bank.  I think they may cut us this month.  If they do, we’ll be even tighter than we usually are, but I’m sure we’ll make it somehow.  I’m NOT sure that we won’t be depressed as hell pretty early in the month, though.  Lack of money makes us depressed for LOTS of reasons…..can’t pay bills, can’t buy things, can’t send our daughters anything, can’t go SEE our daughters.  I’ll stop while I’m ahead.

Something is bothering My Mikey, but he won’t open up to me about it.  I guess I’ll wait till he does.  What other choice is there?

My Key, My Mikey, I love you forever times PI cubed plus one,

Your Jack