On the current

CURRENT BOOK: 50 Shades of Grey and it’s fucking horrible. I was looking forward to it given that it’s so popular, but it is so poorly written that I’m actually having the exact opposite experience than what everyone describes about not being able to put it down. According to my Kindle I’m only about 30% of the way through, so maybe it gets better (doubt it). The actual sex isn’t even hot! WTF is wrong with people? I read What Remains by Carol Radziwill right before this though, and that was really good.

CURRENT SONG: Song? I really like that Jason Mraz I won’t give up. I’m also just generally loving Lana Del Rey right now.

CURRENT OUTFIT: Right now just a nightgown. I like a lot of the recent trends and need to spend a solid day shopping. I want some more maxi skirts, some yellow leather boots, some more ankle boots and wedges, and some flowy tops. I’m reluctant to buy anything right now because I want to be pregnant so badly and if that happens anytime soon I won’t be able to wear a lot of it for long. I’m sort of getting to the point though where I really should just keep moving along with my life and stop trying so hard to plan for it. In fact, I think I’ll go shopping Sunday. 

CURRENT FOOD: Anything that doesn’t aggravate my horrible indigestion and acid reflux. It’s back with a vengeance and is really pissing me off. I mean really. I’m nowhere near overweight, I really do eat relatively healthfully most of the time, sure I splurge here and there, but for the most part I eat small healthy meals throughout the day, and I’m only 30 years old! Why is this happening to me? I really thought it would go away with the stress of the wedding, and it did for a while, but I’ve got to figure something out. I’m going to switch to another gastroenterologist.

CURRENT DRINK: Grande Awake tea with a steamed soy topper and sugar-free vanilla, and lots and lots of ice water.

CURRENT FAVORITE TV SHOW: P and I like Flipping Out on Bravo, The Voice, Newsroom, Boardwalk Empire

CURRENT MOVIE: I don’t watch a lot of movies. P, his mom, and I watched Arbitrage last weekend and it was ok, meh.

CURRENT LOVE: P and our pup, forever and always

CURRENT SHAME-INDUCING GUILTY PLEASURE: First of all, I’m certainly not ashamed of any of my pleasures. Not ashamed at all of watching Honey Boo Boo, The Housewives of New York City, reading celebrity gossip at work, or any other fucking thing.

CURRENT MIND-FUCK: TTC

CURRENT MOOD: Anxious, forever and always

CURRENT SADNESS: Not getting pregnant again last month after doing everything we could to make it happen. 

CURRENT TRIUMPH: Not being a huge bitch to anyone lately.

CURRENT ANTICIPATION: Hopefully sooner than later missing my period and the promotion I should get next month at work.

CURRENT BANE OF MY EXISTENCE: The acid relax, my boss’ mood swings, and trying to get pregnant

CURRENT CELEBRITY CRUSH: I don’t ever really have celebrity crushes. I still find Prince Harry almost unspeakably hot though.

CURRENT JOY: Our Puppy, my P, my family, our home, this life…

CURRENT WISH-LIST: A half-me half-P little human of our very own

CURRENT NEED: Peace in my mind and heart with regard to trying to have a baby

CURRENT INDULGENCE: massages