Argh why do i bother

Why do i bother tryin to do the right thing ?? All i get is treated like shit. Yesterday alison calls me an says we are trying to organise a baby shower for kym tomorrow night an i said ok an shes like would u like to come an i said i get back to you anyway  i ended up going. Anyway they were all talking bout the christmas carols an this an that an how i was meant to be doing a play with alison an sokara at church but they replaced me with Mala (YEA THANKS GUYS)  Then as we were leaving a girl says to me see you on sunday bek (christmas with her an hubby) Alison screams out she wont be coming.  Yea thanks for that to.

Arggh this has pissed me off, i cant deal with this, me an novalee have just been pushed aside. I dont know i just feel soo left out. Kyms like i told them at the hospital you wont be there with me. Well thats great i didnt need a reminder but anyway if she wants to go alone she can.

So heres the deal we were meant to stop contact cause kris needed to be mentally assesd they didnt try hard enough to do that so we still been pushed aside anyway my whole life has changed i went an quit my job because of this CUNT mind my language , im moving back in with my parents an everyone should no by now what that is like. ARGGGHHH such a fucked up situation an i hate it. I hate him. I tryed doing right thing for him an his family an novalee an we have just been tossed out like a heap of junk.

Anyway im in a foul mood so should head to bed

Am i being stupid ???