8/21/07

Ive been in one of them moods the past couple of days, one of them moods where you just want to live on a diff planet to everyone else. Im seriously considering moving towns to get away from Kris an my family. They are all driving me nuts. Me an my parents have been fighting over the most stupidest crap ever. I ended up spending last night in my room an didnt come out lol Novalee went to sleep really early soo she just slept the whole time an i ended up sleeping aswell lol. But yea we had a fight over me moving Novalees bouncer with my foot cause no one else would move it for me i was holding novalee an her bottle soo i had no hands to move it with soo i moved it with my foot an it bumped the coffee table so …. my dad goes grow the fuck up , fuck you have a bad attitude!! I just said what the fuck is your problem i was just moving the bouncer with my foot cause i have no hands to move it with an it bumped the table …. pfft then he ran out an said to mum i was throwing shit around inside blah blah blah , she came in an said i need a kick up the arse an for me to fuck off . I said i will . lol then yea just stayed in my room all night. I did absolutly nothing wrong an had to put up with that crap .

My parents have been in a crap mood an pretty much taken there anger out on me an my younger brother cause my older brother took his slut of a wife back soo they are blaming it on us pretty much . Ever since the got back from there weekend away they have been talking to us like shit an yea . I couldnt  even run Novalees bath yesterday without them complaining !! I seriously need my own place sooo bad. I need to move towns even. Everytime i mention moving out it turns into some kind of argument !! Cause mum rekons its not the right time for me lol pfft whatever. She seems to think that i cant take care of my own baby or something . She asked me the other day when i move out can Novalee stay with her. WTF ?? I just thought to myself fuck no !!!! ARRRRGGHH so fustrated!!!

Anyway … i dont think im really that into Harry anymore. I am but im not. I dont know maybe im just growing up an dont act like a little school girl with guys anymore who knows. But yea we had a little fight the other day well not really a fight i was just pissed off at him lol. He got upset cause i changed my msn name an yea then he didnt want me to call him until i made it up to him it was just really stupid lol . But yea i like him heaps i just dont want to get her soo im not uno getting into it to fast or anything. I dont know i have a feeling he might be a bit of a player but yea we will just see how things go. I dont need a man in my life . Im happy with just me an my baby

Not much else is new hey. My life is soo uneventful lol . Same shit diff day pretty much lol I like have a routine and do it everyday lol . My diet aint going to well i really need to get into it lol argghh its just so hard !! But anyway i should be off an go do something !!

Love Bekki