scarred tissues

I am tired.
So tired.
I am drinking.
Trying to forget again.
Forget that I am tired.

I am not going to be here anymore.
Nobody is ever there when you need them.I am just sick.
pillspillspills
I am the one with something wrong.
Lest I never forget.
Can they see the anger burning in my soul?
I don’t know what it is.
Fuck.
Nobody ever tells the truth.
We are all fucking liars.
Nobody will ever say I’m sorry.
Nobody will ever say thank you.
Gather the ones that are best at pretending.

I’m just tired.
That’s all.
Just so fucking tired.
I am ready to go now.
Take me home whereever you want to convince me that is.
I will learn to settle.
I will take whatever is given to me.
I will smile and be grateful.
Hold me down and rape my soul.
I do not exist here.

I never ask for anything, so that’s what I get.
I ask for everything and get nothing still.
I am begging for the scars to open up.
I can feel the blood dripping from my heart
Flowing over the lungs, dripping from each rib to the next.
oh y o u bea ut if ul thing.
I am your caricature of who you want me to be.
Crudely drawn for $10 down by the pier.
So ungrateful.
Fuck.

Where are you tonight>>>>
It’s all fizzled out and here i am again.

sitting in chemically treated grass that won’t do it’s deed quick enough.