implosion

Just. Fuck. Everything.
Life is such a big cruel fucking joke.
This is what we are living for.
Cold. Cold. Cold.
The more I am myself, the more non-responses I get.
I am s u f f o c a t i n g.
let’snottakeanythingseriously any m o r e.
it makes him feel better that my family is fucked up.
it makes him feel better to tell me so.
it makes them all uncomfortable that i am not comfortable with this bullshit.
throwtheshitinmyface.
I have always tried too hard to not throw shit in your face.
So. Just. Try. To. Break. Me.

I am drunk.

I never want to stop.
these people aren’t worth anything. . . anymore.
My greatest folly is thinking that they were.
Fuck. Shit. Damnit. You fucking dumbass cunt.
Why the fuck are you sharing your unhappiness with the world?
WE ARE ALL FUCKING HAPPY OUT HERE.
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY.
I WANT TO BE FUCKING HAPPY.
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY.

suppression therapy.
reconditioning of thoughts.

h e y. i a m t h e o n e w i t h s o m e t h i n g w r o n g.

yes. i am the one.
I want to get smashed.
I want to be so hungover tomorrow that I don’t have to think.
Cause who would want to think in this shit?
THIS SHIT.

Head down.
"you kids these days are so negative"
Yeah. Well what the fuck is there to be positive about.
Look at what you gave us.
Look at what you did.
OWN UP MOTHER FUCKERS.
YOU FUCKED YOUR CHILDREN.

You can’t even work 40 hours a week to make it in this world.
Oh no. We won’t respect you unless you are working at least two jobs, putting yourself through school and raising a kid.
"OH WHAT A STRONG PERSON"

stupid mother fucking assholes.
yes. there is something wrong with me.
Cause I am not willing to kill myself to look forward to retirement.
 

I. Just. Want. To. Disappear.

Don’t hate the player. Hate the game.
Hate the player for keeping the game alive.

i

am

going

crazy

and

all

the 

alcohol

in

the

world

can’t

make 

it

stop.

 

 

 

Pleasemakeitstop.pleasemakeitstop.
Nono. Iwantnothingmorethantohaveyourbaby.
OhandIwillprepareyourfood, cleanyourhouse, and giveyouallthe babies you w a n t.
Iwilllooktheotherwaywhenyoufuckotherwomen
Because I know.
I don’t have the time for myself.
 

I fucking hate this world.
I fucking hate this world.
Ifucking……

 

Taketaketake
Nevergoaway.
wantwantwant
juststay.
Just stay.

Where are the fields?

Where is the prairie?

Where is the cabin?

Let’s have a real struggle.
Let’s have a real struggle.