Be kind to your elders.

Age is not equal to maturity.
Age is not equivalent to knowledge.
Being older does not necessarily make you wiser.

Earlier today I was helping my mother move a terra-cotta pot from the back of her car to the front porch.
It was quite a heavy pot.
This woman happened to be walking her dog by at the exact same time. I veered behind her as to complete my path.
Stupid bitch stops because her dog wanted to smell me.
I say "Keep walking, please", as I’m clearly trying to move a big ass pot.
The woman pulls her dog away and then decides she is offended.
Stops about 10 yards down and is just staring back at me.

I held my tongue.
Why do I always hold my tongue for people who deserve the lashing?

Why the fuck are you acting all offended when I politely asked you to keep moving?
Could you not see that I was carrying a rather large pot?
That is one of the safe times when you can assume it was heavy.
Why do you think it is appropriate to let your dog stop to smell me and block my path to the porch?
YOU FUCKING STUPID SELF RIGHTEOUS ASSHOLE BITCH.
HOW WOULD YOU FUCKING LIKE IT IF I JUMPED IN YOUR WAY WHEN YOU WERE CARRYING YOUR GROCERIES IN?
HOW WOULD YOU LIKE IT YOU DUMB FUCKING CUNT?
GET OVER YOURSELF AND YOUR SELF RIGHTEOUS EXISTENCE AND LEARN TO THINK A BIT.
YOU HAVE SOMETHING YOU WANT TO SAY TO ME ABOUT HOW ‘RUDE’ IT WAS OF ME TO ASK YOU TO KEEP WALKING.
I EVEN SAID FUCKING PLEASE. NO NO. YOU CAN’T SAY SOMETHING TO MY FUCKING FACE. BECAUSE YOU KNOW THAT YOU ARE ACTUALLY IN THE WRONG. SHUT THE FUCK UP AND WALK YOUR DOG BACK HOME AND LET YOUR HUSBAND FUCK YOU IN THE ASS BECAUSE YOUR PUSSY IS ALL DRIED UP.

ahem.

On the other side of the counter, the old man who works at the corner store.
Yes they overcharge for things, but you can’t beat that kind of hospitality.
I had a drunken conversation with him and another patron, that left me feeling good, but I can’t recollect what was said.
Yesterday, he was explaining what the different American Spirit colors mean.
Yellow is lights. Orange is ultra lights.
"Yeah but they can’t say ‘lights’ anymore’
"Well I can, can’t i?"
I laugh.
He told me how he used to be disgruntled when he was at work.
But now. Now he says, "I used to be in such a hurry. Now I wake up every day and just thank god I am alive."
Pretty much don’t stress out about shit. Stay positive and be thankful you are alive.
I joked with him that I couldn’t quit smoking, because I enjoy our exchanges too much.
He laughed.
He’s got it. He knows what life is about.

I’m learning. I think I’m starting to get it down.
At least I know that I am doing the best I can with what I know now.

I was going to send out christmas cards, but I think I’ll make a llittle email graphic instead.
Better for the environment, right?