I need you more than you need me.
It’s crazy to me how one day you feel alive, happy and optimistic then the very next day can be a total drag. I feel like shit. If anyone needs to vent and has kik, please feel free to talk to me. (nothing.for.now) Don’t even ask, just say hi.
P.S. I think I’m a decent listener and try to be as understanding and compassionate as possible. But rarely do I ever feel truly heard or understood and it hurts a lot. It’s almost paralyzing not knowing who or what to turn to to relieve the pressure. When someone comes to you to vent or confide in you please ask them, do you want me to listen, give advice or help think of a solution? Seriously almost always I just need someone to listen. I like being that person for people.
I know how it is. Very hurty. I haven’t talked to my Dad, the one and only lifeline I had left, for two months because I said something immensely serious but he joked in response instead of supporting me. Some people, or what seems like most people, live by a philosophy of not taking life so seriously. I couldn’t disagree more.
As resilient as we humans are we are just as sensitive and fragile. Our needs must be met. It’s not a matter for negotiations.
Love is where it’s at.
Not necessarily romantic love but authentic heart-centeredness. Love cares, and this is what we need. We need to be seen, recognized, valued, appreciated, welcomed, accepted and received. Love alone can do this.
I walk through this life unloved, unwelcome, unwanted and definitely not appreciated. Since I was a kid. I’m not nearly the only one. There’s something deeply awry with the human collective. And I think, there’s too many people who accept this and they just don’t care.
Go right ahead and unload. Every once in a while, someone will come along and give you a good response. Don’t ever give up and keep your heart alive. Just believe, in a very decided sort of way, that some day soon enough, you’ll be fulfilled. The world might discourage but ignore them. Just completely ignore their heartless negativity and nonsense, mmhmm.
Stay determined, and believe.
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You do not just wake up and become the butterfly – growth is a process x
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