Ready. Set. Go.

Today’s the day.

I start my first day of work today after being unemployed for technically 8 months. I’ve had a few jobs, about 4, in between but nothing more than two weeks. Last Thursday I was excited about starting work today however as the day grew closer, my anxiety became more apparent. Last night was the worst yet- and today I am just trying to concentrate on not making some excuse to call in and say I am not coming. How stupid is that?

I just keep reminding myself that i’m the type of person who, if I am not working, I go insane. Literally. These past 8 months have been brutal. I haven’t been stimulated or motivated because to me, work is my motivation. Which too, I know, is not healthy but until I get some kind of social life back or a hobby to keep my busy- work will have to do.
The next 4 days are just orientation, 6 hours a day, it shouldn’t be that bad. =)

On another note, despite my anxiety, getting out there and working in general yet being around a mixture of new people is going to be so good for me. Of course it’s like starting the first day of school or something and being looked upon as "the new kid". Only now I am "the new employee". I’ve been so used to being in management positions and being in charge that starting at the bottom of the employee chain shall be weird.

To new beginnings!