04/24/2009

it’s already so nice out, I can’t imagine what tomorrow and sunday are going to be like. the weather folks are still claiming it will be in the high 70’s. it is going to be amazing. but today is in the mid 60s and quite enjoyable, so Kalen and I are going to meet marco for lunch and then we are off to the Children’s Museum with Angie and Jack. Angie and I met at the gym, and since she has a son around Kalen’s age, it gave us a reason to hang out and become real life friends. hooray for using progeny as ice breakers!

i realize my last entry was somber, and  appreciated all the support. it makes me wish i had come out of retirement a little earlier 🙂 i just wanted to let it be known that i am OK in general. i have good days, and less than good days. the other night was just one of those less good ones i suppose.

kalen is doing well and having him around has really made everything much much easier. i swear everyday he looks more and more like andrew. he got none of my features, which is fortunate for him because as unattractive as i think i am as a girl, id make an even less handsome boy.

marco and i are not doomed either, even though i think that i probably made it sound that way before. we are just in a weird place right now. i imagine andrew and i would have gone through a rough patch like this around this time in our relationship had he not gotten sick. there is a lot of stuff to work out when you are realizing that you really do want to spend the foreseeable future with someone. even though we have been playing house for a while, i dont think that i had fully accepted that it was a lot more than that. but with everything thats happened, even when its hard, i still just want him here, so i know that things will be ok eventually. and if he ever asks again, i will say yes.

ok…. sunshine calls! have a good one OD world 🙂