lovesick in a lullabye

i face these regrets
another glorious wound
and a whodunit enigma
to occupy my swollen mind
i stand in the shadow of
some horrendous colossus
leering over me
nimbly gargantuan
i am birthed again and again
as the decisions come hard and fast
dingy paths along the forest’s plight
to know full well the stride of my step
i must replay all of these things
junctures broken, laying by the wayside
but it shifts subtly
my mind playing tricks on me
your eyes pleading
her arms bleeding
another crack
one more drop

i live in their silence
the sound of thunder
quaking against the foundations
of heaven and hell

another few million dozen tries
and i’ll find the fire
to light the torches up and out
over and in
forever gone
again and again

ask me how far i’ve come
and i’ll tell you how far i’ve fallen

another pantomime