Thoughts

I don’t how to title this. I don’t really want to write.

Did you ever just want to lose it? Just hit, kick, throw, and smash everything and everyone around you? But, at the same time just want one person to just come and give you a hug, the closeness that will drain the feelings out of your body.

I just want to talk to someone and share some company. None of my kids have even asked to come over on winter break. Yes, there was the storm, but they don’t even call.

Do you know how hard it is to go from thinking you are someone’s world to being an afterthought in days? That’s me. I don’t hear from people, no one checks in, my kids don’t call.

I wish I hard the courage and selfishness to end things. I can’t take control of my life. Every attempt falls to pieces and things get even worse.