The day afterwards

Dinner with kids was awesome, but I just kind of felt out of place, like usual. My sister and brother-in-law took over the “parents” type role, I was there for the ride. Patty took so much from me and I’ve yet to recover or been made to feel like a whole person.

Sitting at work, the store is dead and I don’t have a cashier in for 2 more hours so I’m stuck. Can’t lose myself in paperwork or customer chat. Watching the weather, hoping against the snow.

God I am so alone right now. Tired of being bitter, but struggling not to be.