The day

I’ve cleaned the apartment, did the clothes, and went grocery shopping. It’s not helping. Nothing is making me feel normal today. How much crying is too much?

I’ve never felt more alone as I have this year. Whether or not I did it to myself. I can’t seem to find any escape. Not television or reading, walking or driving.

I just wish sometimes that it was over.

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4 days ago

Have you seen a physician or psychiatrist about this? You’re a fully functioning adult, which is an achevement unto itself. Maybe there’s a chemical imbalance that’s making you so sad all the time.

4 days ago

@ravdiablo working on it, have to get through the holidays first..

4 days ago

@newt316 No! The time to get help is NOW. I’m so sorry to say this, but trying to “get through the holidays” in your condition is dangerous. You need to start invetigating what you can do to relieve your misery NOW. It there’s a medical reason for this needless suffering, why would you want to delay it?

4 days ago

@ravdiablo the appointment is the 3rd of January

4 days ago

It’s an especially tough time of year for you (and for lots of people). Help is coming next month, hang in there. I wish there was a way for you to share your OD with the psychiatrist so they’d have a better understanding of what is going on inside you to better help you.