Sunday

I’m feeling defeated today. I told myself I would get to church, but didn’t make it. IDK, I guess I’m an old man and I believe you dress up for service and neither of the boys have dressy clothes. And yes, I know God doesn’t care about fashion.

Recently I’ve been trying to walk more and my hip is starting to hurt along with my knee. I guess I am extremely bull legged. Which I guess I am if you watch how my knees pop out to the side as I walk.

I’m a mess.

I’m trying to take care of myself, but I’m at a place where I just want satisfaction and that’s really not healthy.

The lady I’ve been chatting with is kind of neurotic and I’m back to feeling like I’ll be alone for the rest of my days.

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April 23, 2023

I go to church with whatever clean clothes I have packed in my overnight bag at JJ’s, I brush my hair and I go.  I take a bath often later on Sundays.  You are right, God doesn’t care about fashion, your hair, whether you’ve brushed your teeth, he really only cares about your heart and if he lives in it.  Maybe you’ll make it next Sunday.  I hope you feel some peace today, I am praying you find it.  hugs

April 26, 2023

I wear jeans and a nice shirt to church usually when I go.  We haven’t been going for a while now but I want to start back.