Sins

Thought I would do a deep dive of myself today, sort of a confessional.

• I am a liar, a cheat, and a thief. As far as how and who, let’s just say everyone and leave it there.
• I am a shit father, brother, and friend. I was a horrible son and husband.
• I have lived most of my life being a victim to my own acts. I am lazy, I am narcissistic, and I cry out for attention instead of earning it.
• I was a crap employee at pretty much any job I held. Never really doing more than I had to. I selfishly asked for more and did nothing to earn it.
• I suck with money, always have. I spend for instant gratification and never think of a future. This is why Patty left me. I don’t blame her.
• I have nothing but opportunities to be with my kids and do things. I should have learned from Kayla’s death that there’s only so much time and opportunities to be a good father. Instead I allow the world and it’s problems to hold me back.
• I have only myself to blame for my weight and appearance. My health has suffered because I gave up on myself years ago.
• Worse of all, as I write this and confess all, I will most likely not do anything about it because I selfishly feel like the world and people in it owe me something. That’s what I hate the most about me, I know better and was raised better, but I just do not care anymore.