Mr. Bifaro

When I was a kid I had a paper route. One of my customers was Mr. Bifaro.

I had never met a more angry man in my life. It wasn’t an act, it was his reaction to everything and everyone.

“Get off my grass” and ” Why are you so late” were 2 of the things he would shout. A permanent scowl was what his face was. I think he only had two different outfits and his outside patio chair had a permanent shape of his body from him sitting in it for years.

All I wanted was to see him happy one day, but it never happened.

I have come to understand him now. Lonely, pissed at life and people for going on without him. Family and friends leaving him. Stranger’s attitudes not wanting to understand him or give him a chance, day in and day out.

I have become him. I have spent over a month trying to repair broken relationships I believe I didn’t break. Waiting for calls or messages that never come. Putting myself out there, only to be disappointed.

Jodie

Maybe write all the pros and cons about your self on a piece of paper and one by one work on the cons and see how that goes? Maybe if you actually see what you don’t like about yourself it will be easier to fix? And there is always others to support you, people like me.

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@jaythesmartone I have, I am actually somewhat ok with me, but I feel like the last person on Earth, all alone without human contact. Then I find someone and they would rather be alone than know me. Its great having you, Robyn, and others on here as friends, but the distance doesn’t help.

@newt316

I know the distance sucks but just knowing is the best part. The truth about me is I would much rather be alone and left to my own devices then to have people who really don’t care one way or the other. I find I can do more alone and actually have fun then to have to be with some one else who isn’t wanting to do what you want…..

The Nerve!

First, I have to say I LOVED this entry. And second, you are not him. You are you, with your own circumstances, and if folks don’t reciprocate it’s them who have a problem, not you. Someone truly selfless and happy accepts others into their energy circle. You’ll be fine 🙂