I don’t want to write anymore

Writing isn’t making anything better, it never really has. Most things I’ve written over the last 3 years I do with a face full of tears and an emptiness that can’t seem to be filled.

Am I personally “better”? I guess so, I don’t know. I can no longer find confidence and courage in myself. I’m just a broken animal that “jumps” and bows down to any sort of criticism or annoyances. I don’t think I can stand up for myself anymore.

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April 27, 2023

Have you tried to have your meds tweaked?

April 27, 2023

@strawberryjelly my meds are good. It’s just me personally. Tired of trying so hard to make friends and repair bridges for absolutely nothing

April 27, 2023

@newt316 I think the meds should help you from being so depressed

April 28, 2023

I felt this…i stopped trying for people tho. It set me free. I let them go if it was causing me extra energy and work. I just didn’t have it to give. I still have a handful of friends that will be there when I need them but they fully understand now how I am and who I am. Some days it makes me sad that I’ve let these connections go but at the same time I feel better to be free of trying to make others happy.

April 28, 2023

@sullengirl3 Thank you